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2010-06-20T11:59:00.001+08:00

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Can't Hear You

2010-06-19T23:12:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 5.30am today despite sleeping at 1+am the day before. Went to MacRitchie Reservoir for 4.95km run with Big kor and jie, tgt with 2nd kor the cameraman of the day. LOL.

Seriously, this is the farthest distance I had ran in my life. Like woah, damn shag for me sia, I kept giving up halfway. Luckily kor and jie waited for me, because I really had no motivation to move on. Especially the part where one of the ushers said "Just 2km left only!" When I heard that I was like WTH! I run until want to doe already then he is trying to tell me that I still have a long way to go, whereby to the = short distance. Haix, I really think that I have no determination, because I kept stopping and jogging on the spot, cos I can't ignore the pain in my legs. So, my super kor tried all ways to push me on, be it persuade, add oil or scold I also cannot. Haha. Cos I really carn take it already. But at least it kept me going =)) He even told me to try and exceed an uncle in front who is around 60+ old I guess, but despite his age he is really fit sia. He was in front of me for quite some time but I just don;t have the strength to catch up with him. Finally, in the last 100m I exceeded him. Wahaha. I think he like quite buay song lor, cos he knew that I was always behind him then past him in the last minute. Haha. Don't care leh.

In the end, completed the whole race in around 38 mins. Initially my target was 30 mins one, but then considering how I kept stopping, I guess this timing is acceptable already. Yeah. Kor waited for me so also got the same timing, but I bet he can complete in 20+ mins one.

After race, felt a sense of achievemeant. Heart itchy to join another 5km race in Sep, but then thinking back of the tragic process of running it really gives me the shivers. LOL. Haha but I think I will join in the end, because I can kill 2 birds in 1 stone = complete goal to complete in lesser than 30 mins and to exercise to burn fats. Lol. I guess there is a high possibility that I will turn crazy like kor they all, keep signing up for this kind of events. LOL.

Nowadays at home very bored =( Nothing to do, so keep watching shows only.. Managed to finish watching 魔女幼熙 and finishing 转角。遇到爱. Haix, really siann leh. Argh. Shall study? LOL. Cos damn BSTAT got 2nd test, don't know for what sia. Supposed to have 1 only.. But I think it is because the previous one was open-book so everyone scored quite well? This one is chapter 5 - 7, including Poisson. God, I got poisoned already =.=

如果爱你是错的，我不要对。

Push Push

2010-06-17T19:17:00.002+08:00

Right now, I am damn poor O.O Not really to the extent of being bankrupt or what, but the fact that my savings was reduced by $1,500 is a huge issue huh. Just bought a new notebook and a new LCD monitor at the recent IT Show. Because of my carelessness and the stupid chair at the old lecture theatre, part of my previous laptop was sacrificed. LOL. The screen cracked and I have to pay at least $450 to get it repaired. Of course I won't do that. Lol. Because to me, I think that is a waste of money. With that amount, I can easily get a netbook which is damn light and bring it to school. But, it will be one that is pretty lousy, because with that sum of money, the processor is gonna be damn lousy. Anyway, bought a Lenovo notebook and to me, it is a damn good deal, considering the cost of upgrading 2gb ram is only $10.

Anyway, damn happy that I don't need to look at the annoying cracked screen anymore, because I have a 20 inch LCD monitor now. Wahaha. Very shiok, especially watching movies and all. But of course, have to pay a price for it. Got Samsung's at price of $178. Support Korean brand. Hahaha ^^ But it solved my problems, as the new notebook = school use and previous Toshiba one = home use. It is good this way too, so that I won't store too many things in the new one and cause it to be lag. Although it is troublesome to transfer files to and fro, I think it is worth it =D

Bought my long awaited kind of laptop sleeve, because the previous one was just too thick to fit in and it is too heavy to had carry too. Consider all my problems solved with money. Heh. But Iam just too lazy to work during this break, plus, I can only work for 2 weeks, so the pay is really very little. Shall chiong part-time job if the long break is coming =)

Surprisingly, it did not rain at 6pm just now, so went for a jog. Yeah, somehow today is soo motivated that I completed 8 rounds around Bishan Active, compared to the previous record of 6 rounds. Heh. Maybe because I was damn irritated with my current body size after shopping for clothes yesterday, because I can't get the pants I wanted. It better not rain tomorrow, considering I will go for a run again if my legs are not hurting. Best is to slim down within this break, as once school start, I will be too lazy to exercise...

Somehow GSS is not a great sale afterall. So far only restaurants are giving good offers, such as 1 for 1 lunch deals or stuff liddat. But then, the other retail outlets aren't doing so. Finally found an acceptable and suitable bag for me to carry to school at Charles & Keith, but it seems like there is no discount or whatsoever. Considering my current financial status, I think it is not the time for me to own such stuff when I don't have the ability to. Hopefully that when the sales arrive, there is still stock for that, or else it is too bad for me. LOL. I think I shall go blogshopping and hopefully can find a nice shoulder bag...

Right now, all I can do is to just daydream about the kind of life I will live if we were to be together... But we aren't even friends in the first place, it is just too hard for me.

I guess I do know where my motivation came from afterall.

Passion

2010-06-11T15:31:00.003+08:00

Finally, its term break! Yeah~ Although it is only for 2 wks, but better than nth^^

Had last paper ystd, Bstat. Shall not comment on how the papers were, because the results always turn out the opp. way, so better shut up. Lol.

Had TA09 first ever class outing ystd. Haha. Just nice it was Jun's birthday. But not everyone is present, just like the 1st time we had lunch tgt as a class. LOL. It seems to be damn hard to get full attendance for class activities eh? But nevermind, 10 ppl is just as great. Haha. Took bus to PS first, had lunch at Swensens. Just nice now GSS so there is promotion -> 1 for 1 during lunch time. Which means that we have 10 ppl = pay for 5 set meals only. But of cos the FOC ones are the cheaper ones. But still worth it though, paid $10 instead of $15. Had fish and chips, ate until damn full. Then went to The Cathay to catch Karate Kid! Haha. Felt damn sad that I can't get a chance to eat my caramel popcorn... Because have to buy it from the basement stall, but then when we went there, it was closed. So Ivan went to buy his XXL chicken instead. After he bought, we went to take the lift up to top floor to watch the movie and just nice we walked pass the popcorn stall. Then the stupid salesperson came to open the door. I was thinking like WTH, now then she come. Walao... Because surprisingly, it seems like no one likes to eat popcorn during the movie, so Ivan and me are the only ones who are interested to get one. We planned to share, but he already got his chicken, so no one can share with me. Somemore I feeling quite full, so cannot finish alone. So, I missed my chance to eat it. Damn her larh! Argh, made me so upset. All I can do is watch the glistening caramel popcorn but no chance to eat it. =(

But, Karate Kid was really nice to watch! Sort of compensated my loss.. Haha. Even Sarah who don't like to watch Jackie Chan shows also said it was nice. Haha. Lucky that we still got seats, because today is the day of its release. Somemore we got to watch in the Grand Cathay, the seats are alot more comfy and the screen is much bigger =D The movie lasted for around 2 1/2 hrs O.O Was shocked when I realised that. Lol. But the show was not boring at all!

By the time it ended, it was near to 4pm already. And I am meeting Liting for NPCC BBQ at 4.15pm at Pasir Ris Int. So chionged by mrt there. Luckily she also late, but I was still later than her. LOL. So we took bus 345 and dropped at Downtown East. Both of us dunno how to go to the pit, but we never meet anyone else to bring us there somemore. Hah. 2 road idiots finding their own way around.. Haha. Before going to pit, went to E-hub Ntuc to help Ivan, Elfi and Weibing to carry stuff. But there was not much, so carried the light stuff. Haha. Can't help it larh, my squad the guys all damn sweet and strong one. Heh. So with the non- rd idiots around, got to the pit quickly. Lol. It was not that far from E-hub though, so saved alot of walking distance.

Then the guys started the fire and BBQ. Yeah, seriously my squad guys are damn nice! Haha. So just sit, eat and chit chat lor. Felt really great to bond with the squad once again =) Ms Tan Chye I also came! Felt like NPCC cum esix gathering, because Huafei, our ex-squadmate also came. Hahaha. So this bbq was really a huge success and damn fun. But, something eerie happened when it was around 10+pm. So we quickly cleared up and left before anything will happen. Shan't mention what that was though.

Eldest kor also came to fetch me as promised. Haha. So nice of him =D Saved me of the walking to Pasir Ris int and long bus ride. Reached home in only 10mins. Whoo! So to repay him, shall treat him to a big cup of Koi Caramel Milk Tea. Haha.

All in all, today was GREAT! 1st class outing with TA09 and the all-so-wonderful bbq with squadmates. Thanks to Ms Tan who also sponsored $100 for the bbq and attending it =) Bringing so much joy to us. Also thanks to Ruiying, our dear unit head who organised it.

Yeah, ZHNP Year 4'09 is LOVE ♥♥♥

Round & Round

2010-06-02T12:58:00.003+08:00

Had a bad start ystd... Went down to wait for bus at usual timing. As I reached at 8.10am the day before when I took the 7.35am bus 52, it was SOO early. Imagine lessons start at 9am O.O So deliberately missed the 7.35am 52. Who knows, the next bus came at 8.05am! Like 1/2 hr later =.= Worse still, the bus was damn crowded, my stop is only a few stops from the interchange, I wonder how the others after my stop board the bus. Of cos, there are no seats available.. Traffic jam somemore, when it didn't at the expressway for so many days already. End up reaching sch bus stop at 8.50am. LOL. Not a gd timing, because it is too near to start of lesson. Haix, means it is either I reach damn early or damn late I guess. Hmm, maybe shall try taking 74 to sch one day.

Raining in the morning, so S&W held at squash court. I also dunno I blur what sia, was unable to comprehend what the tr was saying. Anyway, ended early! Like 9am when it was supposed to end at 9.30am usually. Yeah~ So the whole grp of girls, like 6 only, went to the canteen 2(?) to eat. Only had lemon barley drink, cos no appetite to eat somehow. Then went for Idea jumpstart after our endless conversation. The great thing was, IJ was quite slack today. Although usually it was slack already, but today's activity require minimal thinking, which is damn gd already. Because I am already brain dead due to having only 4.5 hrs of slp >.=

The even better thing is, today it ended DAMN EARLY! Normally other classes will end at 12 pm sharp, but for us is 11.30am. But today, it ended at 11.13am! Shiok sia, dun wan waste time, so went home straightaway. Better still, 74 came right after I reached the bus stop. Heh. Reached home at around 12pm, SO EARLY =D Just nice Mum oso finished cooking lunch. My favourite Mee Siam. Woo! Now damn happy cos lunch was damn nice and made me damn full now. But then somehow started to feel restless already -.- But can't slp, cos just had lunch awhile ago. Shall wait until 3pm, if really tired then take a nap. However, taking nap will cause me to hav problems slping at night 0.0 But luckily tmr can report to sch at later timing, cos for my Bcomm meetings assessment is on fri, so can slp lesson tmr and report at 11am! Better than nth. Haha. So better faster chiong tutorials and revision and hopefully can slp early tonite^^

Off to chiong already~

Z Monster

2010-05-28T03:20:00.001+08:00

Z Monster won the fight already. I am feeling damn tired now, want to sleep...
Only finished compilation for Demand, which is 1/2 chapter. So 2 1/2 more chapters to go.
Alright, knocked out already >.<

Time to sleep!

The End Is Coming

2010-05-28T01:24:00.002+08:00

So... Have many assignments left to complete for elearning. Argh. Shall chiong Bcomm 1000 word draft, Bstat and Infa online quiz. Had totally no mood to do anything in the afternoon, so slacked all the way by watching tv and irritating eldest kor. LOL. Currently feeling very awake, so shall make use of my energy. Hopefully can compile all the notes and ppt of all Miec chaps included in common test. It falls on nx Sat! :O Super scared, because after today's Elluminate session, everyone seemed to be unsure of how to apply the concepts and even misunderstood the concepts, especially me! So must pull my socks up already!

Just finished compiling chap 1, which I took hrs! =/ 3 more to go... Chiong chiong chiong~

Anyway, shall cut hair tmr! Yeah, have been waiting for a long long time already. Since tmr is a public holiday and eldest kor also want to cut hair, can hitch a ride. Heh. MUST keep reminding myself not to believe whatever hairstyle the hairdresser recommend. Because I suffered HUGE consequence previously = cut my hair short. NEVER again! I don't want to go thru the painful process again. Yup, = layer hair and ~~get rid~~ shorten my damn long fringe. Woots! Hopefully the layering will not destroy my still-quite-smooth hair due to rebonding last nov. Or else I will be frustrated over bad hair day everyday =(

As I am typing, I realised I am getting more and more tired, my eyes are drooping down already...

Alright enough talking. Off to revision... ^^

Let Me Be The One

2010-05-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

Went back to sch for IS Modules, despite it is elearning wk =/
Super siann, cos start at 8am somemore, means have to wake up even earlier.
Anyway, S&W was rather slack today, but weather is DAMN hot. Can't stop perspiring.
But luckily I found out the 2 guys in my grp are solo-ist and are very gd at bball, so I saved the effort of running around. Heh. But, both teams thought draw= no punishment = 30 pumpings. But end up we all did it. Anyway, no kick larh! Haha, I also never ran much today, so treat it as exercise. LOL.

Idea Jumpstart was rather tiring, not because we have to do physical exercise or whatsoever, but more of mental exercise. LOL. Need come up with 3 ideas of an ideal wallet for partner, draw it out and write up on it. Carries 10% of overall marks, plus it is individual assignment, so racked my brains really hard. Hopefully my art today is up to standard, although it never did. LOL.

After that went for INFA makeup lesson at blk 72. A long distance away from previous venue, blk 50, but luckily the path home is near blk 72, so makes no difference because I have to passby there anyway. Mrs Linda Seah is really great man! She really sacrificed her time just to make up for the workshop I missed last fri due to prize giving at Zhss (never regret going there! =D), unlike someone. LOL. Nevermind, dun mention it, spoil my mood only. Yeah, so she went thru MYOB patiently with me.. I realised MYOB is a damn cool program! Saves alot of time compared to working manually on paper. Yeah, if only we can use in for all asssignments. Haha, impossible. Yup, Mrs Seah (INFA tutor) & Mrs Teoh (MIEC tutor) are the best! <33

Anyway... Took 74 and changed bus at Marymount road instead of 52, because it is taking longer and longer to reach the NP bus stop =.= Then just nice eldest kor want to go swimming, so faster chiong-ed lunch and went with him. Sun is so BRIGHT and HOT today, although it is partially hiding behind the clouds. Thought I did not get darker, but in the end I got sunburnt. Argh, pain! But then luckily I am clever enough to apply sunblock on my face, so my face is slightly burnt only =) If put too much later my arms and legs soo dark but my face still soo white like so fake. Look like tomato now, arms and legs super hot. But I think my arms are far redder than my legs now.. Hopefully after the redness fade, the tone of arms and legs are the same. I just can't stand being white. Wahaha.

So wasted my time since I came back from swimming until now, when I have far more important things to do. Research and stuff to be completed tmr for elearning. So many tutorials due nx wk not done. Moreover next Sat MIEC common test already, followed by others. Yet, I am feeling damn tired now, probably staying under the scorching sun for too long and wasting my energy on doing stupid things online. LOL. Siann, wanted to sleep early today, but I think need to burn midnight oil again =(

Btw, SS501 new album is released! Although it is a MINI-ALBUM AGAIN, but the songs this time round they are damn nice! =D Yeah, now more and more new Korean songs are adding to my list! =DD

Fighting~!

Perhaps it is the best that I don't see you anymore.
Because somehow, the images of you are slowly fading when you are not in my sight.
The time I spent thinking of you is getting lesser and lesser.
This makes it easier for me to let go...

Maybe in the first place, it is not even considered as love.
Thinking of you already became a habit.

Drunk On Sleep

2010-05-23T16:56:00.004+08:00

Recently, did not set alarm as I did not have a good sleep when sch starts. Due to doing tutorials late at night, or simply keeping myself awake until at least 1am everyday. Don't want to sleep early, as I want to live everyday to the fullest. But of course, I have troubles waking up in the morning, feeling tired and all.

No matter how late I slept these days, be it 1am or 3am, I still wake up after 12pm. Causing my neck to ache badly. It is not because I am deprived of sleep, it is just simply because I did not want to wake up. Had been dreaming of a particular person ever since friday night. This had not happened before, because at most it will only last for a short moment once in a few months. However, this time round, it lasted for 2 whole nights. I did not dream about anything else but him. It may have felt good when I was asleep, or more like when I was in the midst of dreaming. It was pure bliss and happiness more than anything else. It made everything that I wished for happen. But, when I woke up, I felt empty, empty to the maximum. It was really bad, everything that happened disappeared in a split second, but bits and pieces of the dream lingered in my mind. It seemed so real, yet unrealistic. How I wished that I would never wake up, and stay in that dimension forever.

Although it felt great in the process, but I rather it never happened. In reality, it will just torture me with tons of flashbacks, repeating again and again. I know that it will never happen in reality, but then it just kept appearing, adding more scars to my heart. No matter how hard I tried, I just can't erase it from my mind.

Right now, I realised how hard it is to forget him. Although I would always say that I had long given up on him, the truth slapped me hard. I really missed him.

Please, someone just save me from this agony. I am really getting tired from these pointless and foolish thoughts.

If I tried harder, will it change the outcome?

Because of you, I am really torn.

If only you can understand and also return the feelings...

However, I know that it is impossible, even in the future.

One day, I want to shout out loud, that I am okay without you.

Like A Fool

2010-05-21T22:57:00.003+08:00

Ended lessons at 12pm instead of 4pm, because going back to zhss for prize giving. Wahaha. Damn shiok. Went home, cooked maggi and ate with yanling. Changed then went to zhss. Actually intended to take bus one, but I guess I took up too much time to dress up, so took circle line instead, or else maybe late.

Felt a surge of feelings overwhelming me when I was taking the escalator up at Serangoon station. Felt that my surroundings were so familiar yet so strange. It has been months since I came to Serangoon, excluding the day when I came back to collect 'O's cert.

But it was really great to be able to step into zhonghua again, our second home =) The greater thing is that many familiar faces are there! Yeah, many came back to collect prize, while others came back to visit. ^^ At first felt awkward, because majority were JC students wearing their uniform, the fraction is like out of 15 students, only 1 poly student. LOL. I think even lesser larh. Wearing my own clothes like very outstanding, because totally different. Somemore, they have more common topics to talk about amongst themselves, then I feel like outcast? But luckily, as time passes by, managed to blend in well =) Because we have known each other for at least 2 yr, sure can communicate one. And yah, the feeling of being in sec sch came back again. Just feel really comfortable nice to hang out with these people again. It is just so different but in a nice way. Felt really happy to see them! ^^

Was surprised and glad that Mr Chong actually recognised and remember me! Haha but I think it is also hard to forget me, judging by the fact that I always topped the bottom of the class.. LOL. I realised that teasing students is his hobby. For example, the conversation he had with me:

"Ehh? You also came back to collect prize arh?"
"Yah."
"Best in Biology izit?"
"HAHA. No larh!"
"Haha. =D Then what prize you taking?"
"SAC award"
"What is that?"
"I also dunno leh =.="
I thought he DM so everything will also know.. Haha. But anyway, he is a really great tr and my B3 for bio was all thanks to his teachings =)

Collected prize, watched performance and went to have refreshments at canteen. All the ex-students keep taking photo tgt. Haha, soo cool! Although we were all from diff classes last yr, but we all jus gathered tgt, united like one =) Yeah, it feels good. While collecting our bag at auditorium, some ppl jus grabbed the mic and entertain. Then it is more photos! Haha. We were enjoying ourselves, claiming the audi as if it was ours. LOL. No one was there to monitor us anyway. Heh. The refreshments was so-so, NP one is alot better! Haha. Many of us were like asking ppl to go join queue again to take the desserts like cream puff, cheese cake and brownie. Huafei and dunno who came back with another round of cream puff and brownie, yet it was all grabbed before I could. =/ But luckily, Bokang also went to take many cream puffs, everyone started snatching again. But he was nice enough to leave one for me like I had just told him to. Yeah, Bokang-na still the best man! =D

Then spent time talking, taking photos for 4e2 as well as Npcc. Haha. Wonderful memories =) Then the other grp left first, leaving yanling, zhihua, liting, uchan and i the last few who are still in the canteen. But met the other grp at sch gate, as they were discussing about where to go. lol. Took bus to AMK, wanting to Kbox. But then when we reached, we realised the rate was $25++. Too expensive, so left to look for Huafei and Sibyl. By coincidence, we met Lim Pin at AMK Hub. Haha. He was waiting for Zihui to reach. Then just nice Zihui reached! Haha. Was looking forward to meet him as he never attend the prize giving due to cca. Glad that still have a chance to meet him after missing the prize giving and it had been such a long time already. Pee pee still cute as always. Haha. But left after awhile. Huafei and others left for Suki Sushi for dinner but Yanling and I were tired and lazy to walk, so went to buy Koi. Had Honey red tea. NICE as always! Somemore I had not drink it for such a long time already, because whenever I happen to pass by Bishan's outlet, the queue is damn long. Yah, but a pity that I bought medium size, not enough to last me at home... Haha.

Elearning wk next wk! But then I bet there will be tons of assignment to complete, plus I need to go back on Mon for KCC and Wed for IS modules and INFA makeup lesson, so nothing much to be happy about, just that can sleep in later. Heh.

Anyway, common test timetable is out! Argh, feeling damn stressed now. I also realised that the test clashed with my lessons and test! Because for 3rd and 4th June I have lessons plus 5th June, Sat, I have MIEC paper! Haix, the week arrives then see how.. But I don't want to miss out 4E2 Chalet! =(

My greed prevents me from erasing you from my mind.
If only time can stop and let me stay beside you forever.
I missed you.

Change

2010-05-19T18:13:00.003+08:00

Cough not getting any better, worst thing is that sometimes my throat will feel super dry out of a sudden and start coughing non-stop. This is worst especially in buses and class, probably because the aircon made the atmosphere dry and I am the one who is so embarrassed for keep coughing and disrupting peace..

Was raining in the morning, really want to lay on the bed and go back to sleep, but then have to wake up for sch. Argh! Somemore today lessons start at 8am, have to wake up even earlier... Due to wet weather, had a change of venue for basketball, from bball court near the Loft, to outside squash court. Did stretching/ conditioning instead, or Yoga, like zongquan said. Haha. Was very tiring and strained my muscles, because the first thing he told us to do was to climb the huge steps (amphitheatre type) by running and then walking down using the same steps by the side. Doing it is no problem, but continuously doing it for 15 times was hell man, sure those muscles stretched and ached. LOL. Then had to sit and bend down to touch our toes, with partner pushing our backs downwards. Worse still, the last 3 that we did had to be under the condition where our partner will push us while moving into men's style push up position =.= Pain man, it hurts. Luckily Yunrui is light, relieving pressure, but I can't say the same for her. Another worst one was to place our legs at the step above and lie down, keeping our butts close to the step. Then we have to use our abdominal muscles and force ourselves up to touch our thighs, then knees then toes. Can't do at first, but then managed to later. However, like what many say, no pain no gain. Gain = able to touch toes while PAIN = lower back blue black. LOL. I guess it was due to the force exerted on my back against the hard ground while forcing myself up. So constant hitting leads to blue black. Super pain now, even if I lie back onto the sofa also hurt larh, siann. Pasted those medication kind of plaster, better get better =/

Anyway, was released very early today. Usually it stops at 9.30am, but today it stopped at 9am. Like woah! Too bad I only brought my shower foam along, as half an hr is not enough to wash hair and then go to class. But then today have 1 hr free instead =.= So only bathe without washing hair... Then we still had time to eat breakfast lor. Wanted to eat cheng teng one, but then the aunty say they don't sell already. Then went to drinks stall, wanting to get bird's nest drink, don't know why but got feel drink today, but aunty also say don't have. Walao, I think it is time for this canteen to renovate liao larh, everything I saw at the signboard and want to buy don't have. Lazy to buy other stuff and settled for a bottle of green tea instead.

Met Wanting and Zongquan at bus stop, took 74 tgt. Because I had been waiting for 10mins already yet 52 have not arrived, I don't want to be an idiot and wait for 30 mins again, like the other day. Talked during the journey and was entertained by their lame jokes. Especially Zongquan, he had soo many to say. Haha. So time passed really fast and alighted before them.

Then, came back home and watched youtube videos and allkpop-ed. LOL. Watched 'Happy Together' featuring Rain and Kim Jong Kook and I realised that Rain very cute sia, especially when he smiles, his small eyes and when he swings his head to get his fringe out of his face. Haha. But none-the-less, he is damn man! Haha. Too bad the new episode of HT featuring Rain and Hyori is not subbed, cannot understand what they say. Hopefully some Korean faster go sub then I can watch le. I bet it will be damn nice to watch larh, considering both the cuties Hyori and Rain are tgt in the show. Looking forward! Heh xD

Vulnerable

2010-05-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

Die die die. Now cough starting already. Shit sia, my ulcer and throat pain like siao, lips super dry then now cough. Cough until throat gets more painful than before. Haix. Faster recover pls.. I am suffering =/ Somemore on fri going back to zhss, i don't want to go up the stage and look like a freaking sick idiot. Argh.

Anyway, only managed to finished compiling INFA notes for 1 lecture =/ I guess it is because alot of time is wasted on drawing the tables in MSword and due to me taking my own sweet time. LOL. But at least i did not waste my time like any other mondays, slacking away. After this shall complete today's INFA tutorial correction and hand up to Mrs Seah on thur afternoon when I meet her for make up lesson on fri. =)

Cough, please don't take my breath away. It is damn irritating, spoil my mood!

Lethargic

2010-05-15T22:53:00.002+08:00

Woke up feeling hot and shitty, and I knew something was wrong. Walked a few steps and my world was spinning. Then took temperature, 38.5 degrees. Crap, fever. Argh. Had flam (?) stuck at throat and when i spit it out, it was filled with blood. O.O

Dad and Mum accompanied me to consult doctor, turned out that my throat skin was peeling hence resulting in the blood. So painful, hate swallowing now. The ulcers in my mouth are not helping either. Felt really bloated and vomit. Hmm, I wonder if I was studying too hard to cause me to fall sick. LOL. Maybe on ystd the Bcomm presentation frightened me, then Bstat was bad as I did not do homework and felt like sleeping, then the temperature for the rm during Infa was very low and freezing. Okay, I don't know what I am talking about.

All I can say is that the main factor is due to the bad weather and going in and out of aircon rm. Lol. Having aircon in all the rms in NP was supposed to be a benefit, but right now it seemed to be a disadvantage? Lol. Slept for the whole day and did nothing meaningful.

Hopefully tmr I will be feeling better and can complete my tutorials for nx wk. Haix.

Goodbye My Love

2010-05-11T16:47:00.002+08:00

Elearning day! Woots~ Slept until 11+am. Super shiok! It had been such a long long time ago since I had the chance to sleep soo long. Previously always stay awake until 1+am then had to wake up at 7am to prepare for sch. =/

But then, it came with a price = start on ITB project. Haha. Discussed with Sarah, Louise and Xiaofen. Split the jobs and we are back into our previous partnering again, SS and XL. Haha LOL. After this post I shall quickly finish my part, send to Sarah and complete the rest hopefully on fri. We all don't want our wkends to be touched. Haha.

S&W tmr again! Best is that it will proceed like the previous lesson, then it will be super wonderful and enjoying =D Basketball ♥♥

But then the bad news is that Bcomm individual presentation is coming up, which is on fri. Argh! Have not thought of a suitable storyline yet. Siann... Somemore I don't know whether others prepared their formal attire already not, I am seriously reluctant to get one. =( Shall ask SXL later. Heh.

Today's whether was great! Started raining since the afternoon, not so warm at all, or else my headache will come again. But then tonight better not be humid and all, or it will get damn hot.

If only I can stand in the rain, then the tears can't be seen.

I Go Crazy Because Of You

2010-05-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

Sch is starting to be.. A lil busy and quite siann? Haha lol. Totally love mon to wed but hate thur and fri. LOL. Somehow i dun appreciate bcomm, bstat and infa lectures. But the tutorials are damn fine =)

Anyway, there is bcomm individual oral presentation nx wk. Yet, I have not prepared my topic yet, only told tr that I would be talking about future and teleportation. Wrong choice, LOL. Too bad. Today was supposed to attend kcc de stuff, but well, yanling and I made a wise decision. Haha. Went shopping instead. Haha. Went to G2000 and wanted to buy formal attire in advance for presentation one, but then don't have the feel. Somemore all that I saw was short-sleeved, which means have to buy jacket to wear also. But I don't want to buy jacket, nor am I sure whether short-sleeved ones are acceptable or not, so bought none in the end. LOL.

Then slacked at my home again, watched family outing ep 1 and 3! Damn funny sia, seriously, it is a damn damn nice variety show! =DD Especially with all the regular guests in season 1, you cannot miss it! Yanling then left and I am left alone at home to 'nua'. LOL. Watched tv and searched youtube videos to waste time.. Was feeling very full so skipped dinner. But then parents came home and had bought me kfc whipped potato, so ate it. Thought I could lose weight by skipping today's dinner, but eating whipped potato at 10+pm sure made me gain weight instead lor. Haix.

Shall do hw tmr, cos the day after tmr is mon, so hopefully I can finish ALL tutorials tmr. Ohh yah, best thing is, nx tue no sch! Because it is elearning day for ITB. WOOHOO~!

Yu cheong is a really nice guy with many gd qualities that cannot be mentioned in 1 post only. LOL. See I so gd =)

OH!

2010-04-28T15:51:00.002+08:00

Last wk damn shiok, because it was the first wk of school, all tutorials are canceled! xD
So it means that I get to go home early practically everyday. Haha.

From this week everything will resume, which means that on thurs and fri I shall be released at 4pm. But then have to stay back for ITB project, so I guess will be late bah. Anyway, today was the first official session of S&W. Chose basketball, so training started at 8am to 9.30am. Woah, was rather shagged sia, run here run there, somemore was made to do push-ups. Although tiring, but at least now can exercise and try to slim down within these 12 wks. Haha. Imagine for S&W already quite tough, if I join bb for cca then I can die sia >.<

Bcomm on thur and fri, which means that I have to bring my damn heavy laptop to school again. Haix, wed are best man, 2 hrs of S&W and 2 hrs of idea jumpstart then can go home already, best of all is that don't have to bring laptop lor. LOL. Haix, I guess my shoulders will start to ache again.. =( Shall endure until the IT Fair in June to buy another one, perhaps a netbook that is damn light!

Poly life is not as easy as I thought. Haha, cos some modules are really alien language to me and lectures last for 2hrs =/ I guess this is what independent learning is all about ehh? Plus, i guess projectwork for all the other modules will start by nx wk, gonna be busy already. AH~

Apple Is A

2010-04-19T20:34:00.002+08:00

First day of school! Was soo nervous that I can't really sleep ystd night.. Haha. Met yanling at j8 mac for breakfast. Shared the breakfast deluxe and was super full man, i wonder how can a person finish it alone =/Met Huafei on bus 52, soo many ppl boarded after bishan sia, luckily we had seats already. Somemore the bus jamed for super long at expressway sia, boarded at 7.50am yet reached NP bus stop an hr later when it is supposed to take half an hr only. LOL.
First class was pretty far and I didn't know how to make my way there, but I was clever enough to bring my enrolment file for the campus map. HAHA.

Was a little late for class, luckily the lecturer started to introduce about herself only. Never scanned my student card for attendance because I went in with Sylvie and ppl and they never scan too =/ Haix, have to rmb to scan for all lectures from now on. Lecture was still alright, started on microeconomics.. Was a fresh topic for me, because I never learned about this before. Was a little bored at the end, because lecture lasted for 2 hrs O.O Imagine in sec sch it is for 40mins and I am dying already. Haha, but I think the lecturer was pro, finished 64 slides leh. Have to learn to stay awake though.

Anyway, went to venue for INFA tutorial but end up it was cancelled. Wandered around the corridor like idiot =.= Haha. Shiok arh, school ended after 2 hrs. LOL for this week only. Joined Huafei at cca fiesta for awhile then went to look for 2nd bro. Had 1 hr plus to spare because yanling had lessons till 1pm. Sticked with bro and his friends, they were a bunch of nice and friendly ppl! Can hang out with them in future =) Haha.

Met yl then walked around cca fiesta again. Had 2 rounds of candy floss and left ~~sch~~ institution for j8 as makan place was too crowded already. I realised I met many ppl like weng kong (neighbour during work), orientation grp mates and of course ex-zhssians. Quite cool.

Shopped at j8 to get stationery and stuff then home sweet home with yl. We bought Nongshim claypot ramyun as lunch. Was damn nice! Woah, now another fave for me other than Kimchi ramyun already :DD

Viwawa-ed awhile and youtube-ed then yl went home. Followed yl's clever method by watching youtube videos and learnt how to french braid my hair by myself. Super happy, because that was my wish since yrs ago but I never bothered to learn. It wasn't that hard after all =D

Anyway, today was so-so, where the bad thing was that I haven't made any new friends yet plus I haven't met my classmates of ta09. Hmm, hope that will happen soon, or else I will be so lonely =( Now still unsure of my timetable tmr, because I don't know whether I have to attend the workshop for ITB or not. Shall check tmr. But anyway, latest lessons end at 12pm, as tutorial is cancelled. =D Abit lazy to bring laptop though, because I haven't got a proper sleeve yet plus it is heavy and tedious to carry around.. =/

Shall wear more comfortable clothes and sandals/slippers tmr. Woots~

Your Love Is All I Need

2010-04-16T21:35:00.002+08:00

Went shopping with Yl today. Bought things that I did not intend to buy, except for pencil case. Haha. Hmm come to think of it, I only bought the bling bling specs and pencil case? Btw, realised that the shop 'Mitju' also had an outlet at somerset 313! But then, still never buy my初二的鞋. Inside joke LOL.

Not forgetting to mention, I actually ♥ my timetable. Haha. Because the earliest lesson is 8am, for wed only, while other days lesson start at 9am. Mon to wed can go home latest 1pm, while thur and fri is 4pm. Haha. Not bad larh. Hmm, but then went to check my classmates for TA09 and S&W. It seems that I know none of them =/ All I realised is that there are quite a few ppl in my class with the same surname as me as well. Haha quite surprised leh. Anyway, really hope that everything will turn out well larh, i try to be more sociable haha.

Super Girl

2010-04-15T21:32:00.002+08:00

Alright, 1 day down, 2 more days to go. Tmr off! Whoo~ Really dun feel like going to work anymore, so tired and siann. Anyway, school is starting real soon! Dunno how I should feel... Let nature take its way=/

Spent $70 at cotton on ystd. Haha, quite xiong ehh? One shot spend so much at one shop. Haha, but finally get the cardigan and type of shirt i want already, so no regrets =) Anyway, 6 pieces for $70 is uber reasonable. Actually wanted to get shorts at 2 for $20, but considering I am in love with long pants now already, maybe will go get more jeans instead. Haha.

Seriously hate the new version of youtube now. My realplayer downloader can't seem to work, how the hell do I download the MVs? Somemore most of the videos have copyright or is not available to certain countries. ARGH WTH.

Maybe going out with Yanling tmr afternoon. Like woah, so long never meet her already. Lucky for me, she saw my post and I have to treat her to Koi as mentioned. Haha. Hmm, shall get more things to prepare for sch bah. Haha. But I shall promise myself not to spend over $100 tmr, because the salary for last month shall be shared with dad and mum too, considering the family situation now... Though life is not as smooth now, but at least everyone is healthy and happy. ♥

Whatcha say

2010-04-11T23:44:00.002+08:00

Alright, orientation was over already. Overall was still alright larh, enjoyed some parts, disliked some parts. Had to pay for own meals for first 2 days, only the last day teatime buffet was provided. Yummy though some food was really sweet. Haha. Anyway, was glad that I actually made quite a few new friends from this 3 day event. Heh. Hopefully some of them will be in same class as me, so that don't have to say long grandma stories to introduce myself over again. Haha. But surprisingly, out of those 3 days I never even get to see Shiping nor Kuan Cheng, only managed to catch a glimpse of Huafei twice. LOL.

Amanda was the first person I talked to since I reached the meeting area. Haha. She was cool man, American-Indian-Chinese. Yeah, was a nice and easy person to talk to =) Next was Sylvie, Christine, Daniel and the others. Talked to Daniel pretty much because we were in the only ones from the same grp for performance and we had the same role: cowboys. LOL.

Dad undergone minor surgery for his heart problem on thur. Luckily there was no blocked arteries or whatever, so just had to stay overnight. Did not accompany dear Yanling to Joel's birthday bbq although it was set on the day I was free, yet I can't attend. Sorry arh Yanling, owe you a cup of Koi okay? If u nv see this then too bad. Haha.

After that was work again. LOL. Tired as always but then can't give it up due to several reasons. Was working at taka square ystd but then got transferred to Robinsons RC after working for only 2 hrs or so. Haha. Back to there again. LOL. Luckily, ystd Julian was around and Siti was around today! Haha. Best ppl to accompany me to Bollywood to eat. Heh, ate Nasi Goreng Ayam for 2 days straight. DELICIOUS! =D

Shall work late shift instead of full shift tmr. Shiok shiok! Haha. Made me think of Mongol's cheer during orientation. 3rd 'Mongols Oi!' "We Love Mongols, Shiok Shiok!" *Thumbs up* Heh.

Surprise surprise

2010-04-07T00:19:00.002+08:00

Yeah, 17 already! =/ Haha, didn't like the feeling of being old. Haix. Initially was rather disappointed that no one in my family mentioned anything about it. Then was using com when suddenly my room lights were switched off, and a cake with lighted candles 'float' into my room with my family. Haha. Was seriously shocked and super happy at that moment. I thought I was forgotten, but man, I was not. HAHA. Yeah~ Although there was no presents and all, but it was the thought that counts. The cake was delicious too! =) After that everyone changed and we headed out for supper. LOL. But just so happen that the dim sum restaurant was closed on Tue. LOL so heng ehh? Then went to another place de to try out. Not really nice, but then quality time spent! Heh. Really love my family soo much! ♥

Wait a minute

2010-04-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

Went to NP in the morning to install software and stuff. Waited for a long time because I am soo lucky to experience weird problems in the process. But luckily a kind staff helped me with the installation while I was having lunch. Heh. Ate at makan place with Allan, Kuan Cheng and Hua Fei. I realised guys can really change topics very fast, from girls to school to cars etc. LOL.

Anyway, after that took 52 to Bishan, Hua Fei bought his laptop sleeve then we took circle line to Serangoon. Woah, seriously, I think I can die carrying my laptop around man, soo heavy >.<
He went home while I met Huiting to collect cert and testimonial in zhss. Stayed in the canteen for awhile to chat =) Haha. Missed her much though we met last month for bbq. Then Roy and Bryan came up to wish me happy birthday. Haha. Glad that at least a cadet other than Shean Yin remembered. Roy is still sweet as before haha. Then the whole of my wonderful ex-cadets sang birthday song to me. Though I was rather embarassed due to them singing soo loudly in the canteen when others are around, I was really grateful that they at least made an effort to sing and yeah, it felt nice to be remembered. Thanks to them =)

Like being hit by a bullet

2010-04-04T00:28:00.004+08:00

Heartbroken; devastated... Saw from allkpop.com that DBSK will stop their group activities totally, be it Korea or Japan. Such a great and talented group, yet this is the ending...

" Despite the lawsuit filed by the JaeChunSu trio in mid-2009, TVXQ still continued their group activities in Japan.

But it looks like their 30th single, Toki o Tomete which was released late last month could be their final piece together." adapted from allkpop.com

Haix, I guess 'Please Stop Time' shall be their last wonderful piece tgt. Anyway, they will always be loved as 5. As said by some, this is may just be temporary, so we should all keep the faith. Well, I really hope it does not end up like 2PM.

Their songs are seriously nice, especially when you are feeling sad, it brings tears to your eyes and helps you to sleep, preventing insomnia or bombardment of negative thoughts. Helps in clearing your thoughts too..

DBSK/TVXQ/Tohoshinki, don't say goodbye, you're my melody, i am proud of you guys and many are holding back tears now, stay the way you are, don't care about whatever they say. Don't cry my lover, i never let go, break out and be the rising sun again. Saranghae~! Fighting!

My dedication to them, whereby the coloured words are their song titles. ♥

Stand By You

2010-04-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

Super busy at work today, super shagged. Soo many people again, fold and fold and fold again and again. Wa, really pek cek at times. Somemore today work for 12 1/2 hrs, $ many many, but then tiring. Counting down 11 days before work ends officially! Haha. Then can start school already, but then orientation not as interesting yet. Look forward to it only because I can escape from work. LOL. So long never serve net until shiok, nowadays 12 + am then knock out already, or else can't wake up. Hmm, but I think today at most 1+am then K.O. already...

Anyway, need to go shopping again~ Hopefully but 16th april I am rich enough to cover my future shopping expenses. Haha.

Please Stop Time

2010-04-02T21:57:00.002+08:00

Work is not smooth as expected. Today was rather hectic. 1 colleague late for 3 hrs, stocks came in the morning, shagged. Luckily Thomas came to help. Although today was the first day he came and we meet, he is nice =)

Anyway, cutting down my nags and complaints, shall continue to work until 18th April. For whatever reason, i will and . Found a part-time job that requires me to work every sunday. Still considering though, cos taking up 8 hrs maybe a bit too much when school starts. Hmm, see first bah. Anyway, orientation for acc is coming. Yet, I realised I am not in the same grp as Kuan Cheng and Shi Ping. =.= What a great thing huh, bad enough for it to fall on my birthday yet this kind of thing happen. So heng ehh. Anyway, looking super forward to school reopen ah! =DD

Flavour Of Life

2010-03-25T13:56:00.002+08:00

Well, Dad's job is getting more and more unstable. His boss even told him to take leave to stay at home, to 'rest before his operation'. Woah please, just shut all your traps okay. Nothing comes out except for crap. Seriously, some ppl like his manager, are not meant to be alive on this Earth. We don't need suckers who are hypocrites who plant traps around. Just f*ck off. It must have sucked to have a mother like you, I feel so blessed. 臭狐狸!

Anyway, 2nd kor and I decided, if there is no choice, we can only study + work part time. So now, have to stop splurging money on shopping already.

Everyday at home is soo bored. Whole day sit in front of com playing Viwawa with Yanling. LOL. Off to play already. ^^

This Is Me

2010-03-23T19:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to NP to collect Yanling's notebook. Then went in search of notebook accessories at Sim Lim Square. By chance, saw a cart at Bugis Junction that sold notebook sleeve too, but then it costs $29.90 each, rather ex? But then the designs were quite alright. Wanted to try our luck at SLS so went there without buying from the cart. In the end, those at SLS are either too ex or not nice. =/ Went to J8, mistook Cyberactive for Challenger.. =.= Best oso never sell nice ones =/ In the end, have to find another day to buy the sleeve again. Haix. Bus fare wasted =(

Was super bored today. Finished house chores and sat in front of notebk the whole day. Yanling also rotting, so we entertained ourselves by chatting thru facebook. Somehow msn did not want us to reach each other, as we were both online but then apparently it showed that the other party was offline. Okay, rather confusing but that is just how it was. Continued with Viwawa games until its server undergo maintenance =.= Meanwhile, we played Neopets. Haha. Then continued with Viwawa again. Heh. Can imagine how bored we are? :)

Anyway, it seems that recently Dad had been having problems with his boss. His boss seemed to be dropping hints of firing Dad due to his health. Siann, I thought Dad is able to stay there at least until I graduate from poly, so that by then I can support myself by working to lighten their load. But then... Haix. Moreover, his age and health hinders him from finding a suitable job fast too. Dad also need to go under surgery for his heart problems early april. Hopefully everything will turn out alright. Shall start to scrimp and save now, so as to prepare for the worst. I mean, how can Mum alone support 2nd bro and I who are still studying.. I am willing to work part time, but then school is starting soon. Well, worse come to worse, I shall study and work part-time. But for now, I can only wait for things to happen and brace myself. Although I am lazy to help out at the event from 30th march, I guess I can't help but to go. Furthermore, I still signed up for the Korean lang course at NP, if can't manage then quitting is the only option...

Nevermind, I believe that as long as we persevere and hold on tgt, everything will turn out fine.希望明天未来会更好!

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark?

Gift

2010-03-21T23:18:00.001+08:00

Just came back today from my wonderful cousins'(Kathy & Kenneth) home ^^ Totally enjoyed myself from Sat night till today. Anyway, cutting short on details, Sat night was spend fruitfully playing Wii from 11pm to 4am, eating supper (instant seafood ramen cooked by kenneth =D) at about 2am, playing UNO at 4+am and finally sleeping at 5+am. Haha. Can't believe that I can stay up until soo 'late', but then with the 2 nice and fun cousins, I would definitely say yes =)

Woke up today at 11+am. Kat started on her science hw while I continued playing Wii. Wii Fit Plus totally rocked man! Got me sweating alot =) I think I am really bad, playing while Kat is studying, heh can't help it. >.< Ginn also came and join us at 2+pm. Aunt and Uncle bought lunch for us, Nasi Lemak. Nice =) Then washed up and left for causeway point. Reached later than planned, but luckily 'Diary of a wimpy kid' only has a timeslot, 6pm. So meanwhile we went to the arcade to play. Joanne and Jeffrey joined us rather late, at around 5pm. Had loads of fun at the arcade, but then it was quite a waste of money. Haha. The movie was okay, predicted it to be very humorous, but then turned out to be more of lame than funny. Then continued at the arcade again until 9+pm. It was rather late and they still have school tmr, so proceeded to go home. Felt tired, but then quality time spent with them are soo much rewarding =D

Anyway, to conclude, I am just glad that I have such wonderful cousins by my side, brightening up my days with their company. Yeah, thankful ^^ Hope to meet them soon! ♥ them loads

Like the first time

2010-03-20T16:48:00.005+08:00

18/03/10 Thursday

4E2's BBQ was held today! Was really excited about this, as it was a LONG time ever since we all met up. Glad that some of us mentioned about a gathering, which gave Erlin more courage to organise this =DD Heh. I bet all the jc students were busy and all, but it was great that most of them took the effort and time to join in this =D

Anyway, woke up early in the morning to accompany Dad for his appointment at SGH and then the polyclinic. Was running late, so left him by himself at 3.50pm and proceeded to meet with Hinye. It was raining heavily at AMK then, luckily I brought my umbrella along. Then we went to Zhss tgt, happily wanting to collect our O's cert because we don't want to make a special trip down, waste money since we are using adult fares now. Super pissed off I tell you. The security guard did not let us in just because we were wearing shorts. Somemore she still dare to say next time just wear bermudas or khakis that cover our knees then enter. Like WTF can?! When I heard it I was super pissed off man. I seriously regretted not rebutting her with " You think zhss PE shorts can cover our knees meh?" Woah, like seriously. That day our shorts were not very short, just slightly above our knees only. You think what? We are only graduants who came back to collect certs only leh, you thought we are here to seduce teachers izit? WTH. You tell me slippers are not allowed maybe I still can understand, but shorts too short. =.= Somemore that day raining, you expect me to wear long pants and covered shoes? Attend formal event arh? Crazy. Still keep talking to the Lab tech. Don't think we don't recognise you okay. Doesn't mean we graduate our brains died and can't remember faces alright? @#$%^&* Spoil my mood for the rest of the day.

Enough of rambling about crappy ppl. Move on to the BBQ! Huiting, Peiyu, Hinye and I reached ecp around 6+pm. Not many ppl were there though, I thought we were the latest. Erlin was still worried that not many will come due to the rain. Don't worry, no matter what we will all still come ^^ Only 1/2 of the class came, rather disappointing, but then they have their own activities also, can't be blamed. We have the chef of the day, Mr Hong Pee Pee to cook for us. Haha. The food today turned out to be really nice! Having non-spicy otah, honey bacon and all. =D Everyone bonded well today, although it was just playing simple games or talking. Really enjoyed this bbq very much, I didn't realise how much I missed this class of ours until today. All good things come to an end, soon everyone started to go separate ways. It was really sad to say goodbye, because we don't even know when we will meet again. And it seems like a long long time later then we would. Anyway, all I can say is that 4E2'09 is love! I think it is tough to find great classmates and buddies in poly. Hmm, so all the more I should cherish my secondary school friends then =) Shall pester them to go out more often. Haha.

19/03/10 Friday

Woke up at 7.52am. Really wanted to switch off my alarm and go back to sleep, but I can't. Since Mum just had her minor surgery and needed more rest, I should fulfil my duties as her child and do the things that I could for her. Started to sweep the floor, when parents woke up, surprised that I can actually wake up by myself to do house chores. LOL. I mean what I say okay. Hang the clothes out to dry and also ironed clothes. First time ironing clothes at home leh, at work only used the steamer to iron clothes. Was rather alright, got the hang of it pretty quickly. Then went to market with Dad, to buy the ingredients for our meals. After that, cooked tgt with Dad. First time we cooked proper meals for the family, as in 3 dishes. Usually he only cook a dish or soup, while I only know how to cook soup. LOL. Was preparing the ingredients when Dad suddenly said "It seems as if we are in the program 三菜一汤 hor?" Can't help but laugh hearing it. Haha. Luckily, we still had some talent and successfully completed our mission. Heh. Tasted better than I thought =) I would say, Dad is really talented in many things he does. I was still commenting about how great the vegetables were, then big bro mentioned about him being 企鹅爸爸. LOL. I guess we were really into some of the channel 8 programmes in the past.

Break Out

2010-03-16T11:40:00.003+08:00

Woah, DBSK is LOVE!
Watched their new MV, 'Break Out'. All looked soo handsome and sexy now sia! Haha. Love them totally! Hoepfully the contract thing will end soon and they will continue to stay united as 5 and bring wonderful music! ♥♥♥

One time

2010-03-15T00:33:00.003+08:00

12/03 Fri

Woke up at 8+ am. Went to settle poly enrolment stuff: Pay school fees at OCBC, apply for singpass and registered to use mum's CPF to pay for school fees. Then chionged to meet Yanling and Joel to proceed to NP. Was lucky to meet this helpful guy who initiated to tell us which bus stop to alight, so as to get to NP. Thnks to him! =) Next, Yanling pre-ordered her PINK laptop anf we went for the software installation briefing. I realised that not buying from the vendor will cause more problems, having to book an appointment on 22 mar itself and then going down to NP to install the softwares on the spot =.= Others just need to install online at home.. But then, it is foolish to buy another one, so be it then.

Afterwards chionged home to pack bag for NPcc camp and I was late meeting Huiting, Erlin and Ruiying. Heh. Had a nice chat tgt! Feels soo gd and comfortable when talking to them =)) Took a nice photo tgt with our beloved ZHSS as the background. Was so lucky today, having to meet Lishi and Kelly Soo too! Miss my dear SOO SOO soo much! She slimmed down and look so guai with her new hairstyle leh! Jealous of her =/ I shall start jogging 5km from tmr onwards too! Soon, they all went home except for me and Ruiying, going back to zhss for the camp. Ivan, Wendy, Wilfred, Joseph and Liting also joined us afterwards. Liting was super late can, from 9pm drag until 10plus near to 11pm. I wait for her until my neck also long already can =.= Chatted for a long time, everyone talking about their JC life, while I haven even started my poly life. JC seems really fun, despite the studies part. Hmm, hopefully I made the right choice and that I am able to mingle well with the ppl in poly... Syahirah finally finished her activities and the ppl who stayed over, Syahirah, Liting, Ruiying and me went to 4th floor 2nd classrm, our bunk! Chatted and took lots of pictures. Had lots of laugh tgt =) Joseph and Wilfred went to Wilfred's hse and promised to be back, yet they decided to sleep then come back tmr morning =.= Slept at 1+am.

13/03 Sat

Was supposed to wake up at 5am, but can't sleep wall and felt quite cold, so woke up. Chat with Ruiying then the other 2 girls woke up. Washed up and accompanied our fellow squadmate for PT=) Anyway, I also needed to exercise and get my body moving, no harm done =) Went for breakfast with Liting at N&B opp. ZHSS. Ruiying went back to sch, Syahirah went for her Maths SSP, so it was only left with me and LT. Was bored, having nothing to do. =/ Brought out all our entertainment tools, LT's and Joseph's iPod touch(which he left behind last night), my DS and mp3. Eventually LT slept and I watched MTVs O.O Went to Macs expecting to eat lunch set meals, however, we found out that on wkends, breakfast is extended to 12pm! I don't know if it was there for a long time already, but it sure brought our spirits up! Haha. Then, more ppl came and we played tgt. Ended with basketball and I had to go off..

Went for the long awaited dinner ever since Dec 2009. The treat that I owed my family for such a long time ever since I started work. Haha. Went to Shuang Chu to eat, the stall that cooks food of high standard but prices of zhi char standard=) Bill totaled up to $70.50, considered cheap, having to eat ginger with deer meat, tofu with scallop, prawn with salad sauce, curry fish head and herbal chicken. Everything was delicious except for the curry fish head, the sauce was not nice and the fish is rather fishy, not being handled properly I guess. However, since 2nd kor is not present today, I shall be good to him and treat him tgt with the others the next time. Haha, it repays for being good to me=) Went to bowl at Bukit Batok Hometeam NS with my beloved relatives and cousins. Fun as usual! It was great to have a gathering once in a while! Love them all! ♥>

14/03 Sun

Woke up early to prepare for work. Felt super tired, slept during the journey to work. Had lunch and dinner with big kor and his gf. Subway for lunch was fulling while dinner at Crystal Jade Xiao Long Bao & La mian was not that great. I mistaken the sauce as the thick Sichuan sauce and in the end it was the super oily and spicy one. Worse still, I thought the red tea was chilled, yet it was hot, how to numb the spicyness =.= However, kor was kind enough to exchange his fried rice with mine. Heh, he suffered in my behalf. His gf treated us for this meal =) Ended work at 10pm, was rather tired after the tedious packing to clear the wagons. Sales rep was damn clever, having to order 400 more pieces of polo tee stock ystd. She expect the sales to be be super duper good izit? Hello, it is equivalent to 4 more wagons leh, today last day somemore, you think the IT show is less appealing meh? End up I had to pack and return SO many cartons of stock on your behalf. Thanks alot hor. I think I am seriously reconsidering my decision to continue working. I don't want to suffer this kind of shit already.

Blissful

2010-03-10T23:53:00.002+08:00

Alright, summing up today's events. First, met up with dear Huiting! =) Stayed at the J8 foodcourt for quite awhile to talk about our current life and the memories of secondary school. As we talk, I realised how my mind is still stuck in the period when we were in secondary school, being much more care-free and happy. Staying in class during recess to eat bread while being unsuccessful to escape from Mdm Lau's claws, running and screaming while playing captain's ball during PE, crapping and saying lame jokes, Renjun singing and doing funny stuff, quarreling about silly stuff while queuing for food in canteen, watching Huiting and Koon Leng sleep and remembering their 'special style of sleeping' and pretending that they are awake and listening in class etc etc. Realised how much I missed the wonderful girls in my clique. =) No matter studying or playing, we are always tgt. Finally, I get to meet my shifu; tutor& jie^^ It was great to meet up with her again, not knowing what words to describe my feelings. All I know is, I can't stop smiling.

Proceeded to have lunch at Jack's Place in Heeren. Super vacant, no one other than the staff were inside. Huiting was still joking about me being so sweet to book the restaurant to ourselves. Haha if only ^^. The baked rice was not that nice, but her chicken cutlet and our ice-cream were delicious! Eat until I was quite full though. Shopped around in Heeren then Somerset 313. Wanted to persuade her to change her hair accessories, but in the end I bought more things than her =.= Huiting, watch out arh, I make sure the next time you will 乖乖 buy the things I say. Wahaha.

Time passed by quickly and it was time to say goodbye. I had to rush to work because I was running late and we only managed to take 2 photos. Haix, everytime work gets in my way. But, I am sure next time we can take some decent ones, tgt with Peiyu and Hinye =D

Then, went to work at Suntec Convention Centre to help out in setting up. Finished rather quickly and went back home. Was not informed beforehand that I have to work here, hence can only work on Thur and Sun, considering Fri and Sat I would like to enjoy myself at the upcoming NP camp. It is a good opportunity for me to get back into Zhss and recall those good memories and get away from the tiring life filled with work or plain boredom =)

Shall wake up early tmr morning to go settle the CPF education thing and to pay for the course fees also I guess. Time is running out. Then shall meet Yanling and Joel for IT fair, then also to work from 2pm onwards. Hmm, hope I can meet new friends there, or else 8 hrs will be passing so slowly.

Why are you still haunting me? It is time I moved on...

Tough

2010-03-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

Anyway, work was rather bad. 4 consecutive days of full shift is making me brain-dead. Was very frustrated and exhausted for awhile and didn't give a damn to serving customers at all. Luckily Siti and the other neighbouring promoters were present to talk to me time to time. Or else, I think I will be bored and tired to death. However, the stock issue has not been resolved, but get worse instead. More and more stocks are stacked above my cartons. Gosh, how many times do I have to carry those cartons just to get my stuff? My back is starting to have problems already. Quickly end work on Tuesday and that's it. I am not going to work here naymore unless the situation improves. Otherwise, I may have become an old hag with neck and back problems before I even hit the age of 17.

Julian was on off and today was Huiru's last day. Only managed to know her for 3 days and she is leaving already. Luckily we exchanged email to keep in contact on Fb. Furthermore, she is also studying in NP Business studies, we means that we have a high chance of meeting each other in future. Hopefully we are not like strangers if we meet =)

Well, work without Vicky and gang was really really bad. May have to work on Wednesday at Suntec, hence don't know whether can find a suitable time to meet this bunch of adorable guys =/

Although today wasn't good, but then I am still grateful and fortunate that Mummy actually made the effort to wake up early to prepare lunch for me to eat during my lunchtime at work. Never expected her to actually do that after I complained to her last night that I was sick of the food there. She must have been very tired as she barely had 6 hrs of sleep. Though this should be the first and the last time, still appreciated it very much. Love her loads! <33

Confused

2010-03-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

Somehow developed a feeling that everyone has changed. Those who were close friends in the past didn't seem as close anymore. Everyone is drifting away... How I wished we were all still in secondary school, having fun and chiong-ing studies tgt at the same time. Those were really precious moments. Is it really that hard to maintain a friendship?

Lifeless

2010-03-06T00:05:00.002+08:00

Alright~ 4 days of work has passed already. 2 consecutive days of full shift(10am - 10pm) is killing me already, yet I still have 2 more days to go...

Super shag now, because of the lack of space at the regular counters and cage, had to stack the cartons near the lift landing, therefore had to carry the heavy cartons up and down to get stocks. >.<" Adding more load to my already aching neck.

Argh, faster get this pay can already, so I can go shopping to get ready for start of semester 1! I have soo many things in my shopping list, yet now I am preoccupied with work, and the m)phosis sale is ending already I guess =/

Hopefully pay doesn't exceed $500, or else have to deduct 20% for cpf and the cash I am left with is soo little =(

Anyway received more letters from NP already, have to install softwares already, from 10th to 16th march. Shall not get a new notebook, considering I own 1 already, so there is no need to waste another $1000++ to get a new one. But have to get accessories and stuff. Heh, can spend money ^^ Hmm, shall ask dear Yanling to go NP tgt nx wk bah =) I shall not have late nights now, judging by the fact that I have to wake up at 8.45am tmr and the day after tmr. Plus, my eyebags and dark circles are getting worse. Have to buy skincare products already then. Ciao~!

BORED

2010-03-02T22:06:00.003+08:00

First day back to work. 1 minute feels as if it was 1 year... Work without Vicky and Razzaaq was really dull =( No one to chat with, no one to joke with. Haix, still have 7 days more, have to persevere for the sake of money and to help senior. =/ Hopefully Vicky or Adi can come back to replace their seniors on their off day too. I wonder how I cope with the crowd from Thur to Sun. =/

Woots!

2010-02-27T15:20:00.003+08:00

Just received NP package via mail le. So excited~

But then, I realised my orientation camp starts on the day of my birthday and it is overnight... Well, not a very gd news eh? Spending my special day of the year desperately trying to make friends >.< Plus, different sch diff orientation dates, which means can't get to see Yanling and laoba also. =(

Nevermind, hopefully everything can run smoothly. ^^

Miss, miss, miss

2010-02-27T13:29:00.003+08:00

Sch starts on 19 April, which means I have 7 wks more... Have to find job already, cannot slack at home for soo long. Hopefully can find admin kind of job, because being a promoter is really tough and I feel that my blood pressure is increasing day by day. LOL.

Watched a Korean movie, 'A Millionaire's First Love' until 3.30am. Seriously a nice and touching movie to watch. Yeah, shall spend the rest of the day watching movies already...

Even if love kills, I still want to love.

Secrets

2010-02-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

SIANN~ Had been rotting at home for 2 days and I can't take it already.

Tmr going back to work for 5 hrs, because senior had to go for company dinner, while I the part timer can't join. =.= Nevermind, earn $25 more.

Hopefully tmr morning can either go for run or tan, seriously in bad condition. Anyway, back to listening to english songs recently, because my source for korean songs is gone. Yanling faster come back from JB arh! =)

Accidentally accessed the internet with phone without using wifi for 5 mins plus! Woah, I wonder how my next bill will be like O.O

Shall go job hunting soon, can't stay this way any longer =/ Sometimes I really wonder if going to poly is a right choice. Based on browsing through the photos others uploaded on their JC life, it seemed to be fun, at least better than working my guts out or rotting at home I guess. Hmm, but I guess this is only the sweet part, the bitter one is about to come soon. Poly still the best larh! Heh. Contradicting... ^^

Love struck

2010-02-23T23:09:00.003+08:00

Alright, official last day of my current promoter job!
Kind of happy that I can finally stay at home and relax, however, no job = no income. Sad truth. Starting to miss my superb colleagues/friends already, especially Vicky. =/

I guess I shall stay unemployed all the way, since I figured out that no one would want to hire someone who could only work for 1 month plus and quit.

Well, approximately 7 more weeks to start of school, which means I have to execute my slimming plan already, or else I bet I can put on super duper weight during this period. Perhaps I can also join some course at the CC or what to kill time. Shall see how =)

2010-02-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

Gone

大姨, rest in peace.
I miss you...

♥ forever

2010-02-15T09:35:00.002+08:00

A Song For You

Didn't realised mum woke me up so early, it was barely 10am O.O
I thought it was 11plus already... Woah, feeling tired now, with less than 7 hrs of sleep =(

Today shall be meeting cousins again, ♥ ! Will visit big aunt later too. Hopefully we will spread the joyous atmosphere that will cause a miracle to happen. Missing her old self very much...

Hope that it will be a smooth year ahead =)

If I had done better, perhaps the ending would have been different.

2010-02-02T22:31:00.003+08:00

Hundredth!

100th post! Woo, I think this is the blog that last-ed the longest. Anyway, work was supposed to end at 6pm but decided to work for extra hr. Yet, something stupid happened, where I was supposed to help clear stocks and cartons at cage. End up knocking off at 8pm =.= Don't mind earning another hr worth of money, but then I was rather tired today and wanted to go home early to rest...

Now all I want is for poly to start asap. Firstly, because I am tired of working day after day and secondly, the adult fare is draining me! Everyday transport at least cost me $4 per day, which means I have to work for an extra hr to earn it back =/ Come on, poly card, come come come. By then, buying concession cost me soo much lesser.

Well, OFF day tmr! Yeah damn happy=) So it is time to spend my hard-earned money again. Shall buy more clothes to prepare for my poly life! Then perhaps an iPod touch and a new watch shall draw an end to my shopping list! =D

Anyway, as dreadful work is, at least I have eye candies. It is either a cute guy who look like 小鬼 or customers. Haha, not being despo here, just finding something to look at, so that I won't be bored to death. LOL.

The ear infection is killing me >.<

2010-01-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

I'm a loner

OFF day! Received results in the morning and I was successfully enrolled into NP's Accountancy=) Haha. Met Erlin at Somerset and went shopping! I realised I bought quite alot of stuff today, costing me nearly $80! But it was a great trip. Haha, next time have to jio Erlin again ^^ Managed to get shirts from F21, Uniqlo, Giordano and Bugis street! Yeah~ Feeling soo happy, got new clothes for poly liao =D Heh. Too bad I can't find any matching bottoms or accessories yet. Shall slowly find while I keep earning money till April.. Woah, 2 more months to go yet I am super excited about sch already! But then having to work for such a long period of time is quite a torture =.=

Afternoon shift tmr, so can have a late night.. Hmm I think all I have left to buy now is my Ipod touch, new watch, shoes, bag and to change my handphone? Hopefully can earn more money to buy them all!

Shall go back to watching 妻子的诱惑 already^^ Today is a super duper incredible day!

All the best to all who are going to jc, must strive hard already!

2010-01-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

Mystery

Esix chalet was the bestest yet! Although I turned out to be damn sleepy for work the 2nd day. Haha. The guys were really great, being in charge of the bbq and all. After dinner it was games and a long 2 hr girl's talk., when many secrets were spilled. Haha. Then at 2am, some of our stomachs were growling already, so started fire to bbq again~ First time I managed to stay awake throughout the night at a chalet and catch some sleep in the morning. I realised I practically slept everywhere I go, because I was really tired, having rush down after work.. First it was the bed, then the sofa then the chair at the dining table =.= Yeah, luckily managed to catch the shuttle at 11.55am, rushed home and went to work on time =) It would really be a pity if I did not stay overnight.

Hopefully another esix chalet will come up soon and with full attendance!

2010-01-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

Evergreen

Alright, luckily results turned out to be rather okay. Hopefully I can get into my first choice de course=) JC is definitely not for me. Haha. After receiving results, went to AMK Hub to catch 'Hear Me' with yanling. To me, it was a really nice anf touching movie, because it showed how great love is and the non-exisiting limit of showing care towards your family. Eddie peng was cute! Haha.

Had been working and working. Started to get sick and tired of waking up to report for work.. zZzz Now I really want my poly life to get started! Heh. Shall work for as long as I can tahan. Finally got off tomorrow liao! But then like got no one to jio out. Actually I also don't know what I want to do.. Heh.

Esix chalet is on thur, but then I have to work leh. =( I guess I have to rush there after work then. Still pondering whether I should stay or not, because fri I still have to work also. =/

2010-01-11T10:41:00.002+08:00

Hush Hush

Getting results in less than 4 hrs time! Haix, mixed feelings. Don't know what to expect... All I know is that I did not work hard enough, so now I am afraid to face the outcome.

Thnks to all the ppl who sms-ed me and my family, at least I felt much better and less tensed=) Haha. Hopefully I will have the mood to go shopping or what with Yanling after the results. LOL.

Good luck to everyone~!

2010-01-06T22:08:00.003+08:00

Sweet dreams, beautiful nightmare

Woke up by a super terrifying nightmare. I got back results and guess what? L1R5=21. OMFG. I was like shocked and on the verge of crying. Wth can I do with 21 points? And yet, all I said in my dream was, "Okay, wait for this year to retake again." Then end of dream. Woah, I was stunned for around 5 minutes. Please, if I were to get that I would not know what to do. I don't even have the confidence already yet this dream appear. Can't take it. What is even better is that I heard from my friends at work that results will be released on 11 Jan! Is that a sign? =/ I pray for the better.

Anyway, I also had a sweet dream=) Of my dear Junsu! Haha. So vivid can. Somehow he had gotten fat and I was asking him why. Haha. But I won't mind a cute bf like him. Saranghae~! =D

Well, work is actually getting more and more tiring, probably because I had been working morning shift these days... Shall go to chalet tomorrow and get my butt home at night, because have to work morning shift on fri too! Plus, new stocks are coming in on fri, so all the more have to work. Hmm, maybe I should be like Jiaxin, request to work full on Sun so we would be too tired to worry about the results and sleep soundly hor? Heh.

2010-01-01T19:53:00.002+08:00

Forgive and forget

First post of the year! Felt weird for not writing 2009 when I sign in for work. Ended work at 6pm today, then went down to collect my salary for last month. Was rather dejected after hearing some words of critisism and not getting commission due to Nov's bad sales. Really felt like losing my temper right at the shop, because I hate being compared to others. I can't sell, then please don't hire me because of personal reasons. Fine, I thank them for bearing with me for the past 1 1/2 month. Was glad that I left for Hush Puppies. Tired as I maybe, having to fold the same pile of clothes over and over again, at least I had a little of freedom to talk with my new colleagues and rest etc. Quite a different experience. But it was true that through my previous job, I learnt how to approach strangers better and I thank them for it.

Anyway, withdrawn money at J8 and a weird incident occurred. I was just keeping my money when 2 guys I passed by talked to me. I thought it was some survey so I just showed the hand and walked. But, they kept talking, when I had my earphones on =.= Had to stop.

"Do you have any shop in J8?"
"No."
"Are you a student?"
"Yah"
"Oh, which school are you from?"
"Zhonghua sec"
"You sec what?"
"I just graduated from sec 4"
"So you are 16?"
"Yah"
"Are you working now?"
"Yah... Why?"
"Oh. No, just asking only. Thank you ^^ "
"Welcome"

Many thoughts ran through my mind during my conversation with them. 'Why are they asking such questions?' 'One of them looked decent, but are they going to rob me?' But after the questionaire, all I was thinking was: WTF. Asking only? Please larh, waste my time only. If it was a survey or what still okay, but just asking. Woah, seriously getting more and more fed up after thinking about it.

All I can say is, today is the first day of 2010, so must stay happy and forget about all the unhappiness so that I can have a smooth year ahead. Smile=)

2009-12-31T23:19:00.002+08:00

Lonely

Last day of 2009 but I had to work until 10pm=(
Wanted to countdown with family at Mt Faber, but too lazy because had to work morning shift tmr, afraid that I might be too tired tmr. New year's dayalso have to work. Haha, abit sad by the fact that I can't slack at home. Or else it made no difference.

Just now met up with Erlin, Joohou and Yucheong after work. Thought that they might want to find somewhere to talk, but instead they wanted to go home tgt. Haha. Was reminded of chalet, shall rmb to tell Linda to let me work morning shift and perhaps off for the 2nd day.

Anyway, saw that Joohou slimmed down le! His face obviously gotten sharper. Woah, made me a little motivated to exercise. But got work though, excuse but still relevant. I think it will be damn hard for me to slim down lor, because now I am munching away on the keropok that I just bought from the pasar malam opp my house, waiting for new year to arrive. Heh.

Happy new year everyone~! Yanling should be enjoying her new year in Korea happily=))

2009-12-30T23:15:00.003+08:00

Loving loving you

Today was the 3rd day of my new job. Rushed to work because I thought there was a morning briefing and I did not want to be late. Little did I expect that there was no briefing at all. Work was actually rather alright, with the help of Linda and Kelvin. Was rather familiar with the environment and people now, plus I don't feel as bored as the first day. Luckily I had Sally to help me when there was huge crowds. Also went lunch with her, she had a motherly aura around her that made me feel comfortable talking to her =)

Should 'off'' tmr, but Linda forgotten it's new year eve so had to work. But its not much of a difference though, as long as I can reach home early to use com and not get stuck in the train due to the countdown. Haix, shall miss the 3rd consecutive yr of countdown with kors. Nevermind, money more impt. Haha.

Shall go surf net then slp. Tmr working at 1pm=late night again! =D

Oh yah, dear yanling is going to Korea tmr, Bon voyage! Remember to buy things for me arh^^

2009-12-27T00:52:00.002+08:00

Toc toc toc

Alright, tmr is last day of work at taka already! Mixed feelings though, having got used to working with Eric and talking with the ppl at the booth beside ours. And tmr is the last day.. Shall have a new job on Mon, hope everything will proceed smoothly.

2nd Kor was kind enough to look for me after work at PS too. Managed to get onto the same bus as him so he don't have to alight just to wait for me. And as caring as he always was, he bought Chippy's Cheese sausage and whipped potato to share with me. Plus, he even added extra money for extra scoop of whipped potato. So sweet of him, was touched by his actions. I shall treat him even better from now on =)

Afterwards went to look for Mum, as the timing was just nice that she ended work. Bought keropok from the Pasar malam and went home to eat with Dad. Haha, suddenly felt a sense of warmth emitting from within. Maybe because I had been working almost everyday and did not spend much of my time to talk to them bah. Hmm, hopefully the new job will start early and end early so that quality time can be spent.

Anyway, heard that Big aunt's condition had worsen. Last week at chalet she was still fine and we were having fun and all. Life is really unpredictable. I pray that the pace at which her condition worsen slow down. At least let us be able to celebrate Grandma's birthday and Chinese New Year first. Moreover, little Rachel is still young, how can her grandma disappear from her life so quickly. I cannot allow my imagination to get wild any further. She will be fine, I believe so. Please just relieve her pain, even if it is a little, don't let her suffer a living hell. Good people shall be blessed.

2009-12-24T02:20:00.004+08:00

Update!

Okay, long time nv blog already. Hmm, had been working almost everyday since dec. So far only had 2 'off'. Off tmr, good! so at least I can go last minute shopping for my clothes! Today was rather busy, also went to and fro Ngee Ann City and PS twice to deliver engraving and stuff. Actually wanted to buy some clothes today, but then town area was really crowded, see already also irritated. So just nice can go shopping tmr.

Shall be starting my new job next mon. Hopefully I can have a smooth career this time round. =)

Felt so happy to be able to use my dear com once again, because for the past 2 months had been reaching home at least 11pm+. Can't get any better due to working at town area. Sometimes the long and squeezy bus journey that led to being home at 12am+ was seriously dreadful.

Still msn-ing laoba now, felt happy. Haha, as if we were still in sec sch and all. The wonderful times spent tgt=) Hopefully that I can get 'off' soon to treat laoba his long awaited meal and go for the class chalets!

Alright, shall go surf internet and prepare to slp already! ^^

2009-12-14T01:02:00.002+08:00

~~Smooth Sailing~~

"Life is not always smooth sailing and there has to be ups and downs." Right now I really believe in this quote that I had just came up with. LOL. Just when I thought I can at least secure my job and a stable income till at least 27 dec when taka fair is over, yet another problem came up. Haix. Hopefully I can really find a job real quick and get away soon~

Was sms-ing Kelly then she came to visit me after work! Haha. LOL. She like slim down le, so good! =) She came when I was packing up, but she was released from work at 8pm already. Haha, where to find a great friend like her? But anyway she also nothing to do so come find me for company. Haha. Went to somerset there, 313. LOL open until I don't know. Shopped for awhile and saw a pair of flats that I really liked! Too bad it was too big for me =.= Hoodies were nice but too ex for me. Then went to KFC to fill ah soo's stomach then went home. Hopefully she come find me again on Tue so we can tok more crap and to buy the hoodie I aimed for soo long at Uniclo. HAH. Her hair was dyed and highlighted, UBER NICE! Too bad that in a month have to collect results, too stupid to dye now. Hmm, back to the topic on O's, I really hope that I can get 20 points max. =(

Shall surf awhile more then go sleep, still have to work tmr. O.o

2009-12-07T10:19:00.002+08:00

You're My Melody

Had been working for a week at Taka le. Not bad, getting used to waking up and taking the long rides to and fro. Should be working today, however I was told that near christmas I may not be able to off, so have to now. Surprisingly, today I managed to wake up at 9.50am, without Mum calling me. However, I don't have to work so no need for waking up so early. Haha, nevermind, I shall spend my time in front of my dear com before going out then. =)

Pay check has yet to come, hopefully I will get my figures in my bankbook up again. Haha.

For the past week, felt rather weird, although still keeping in contact with some ppl, however not talking face to face is strange. Felt as if I was distant from some. Lol. Aunt Ana and family came to 'spy' for awhile and left. Didn't manage to talk to them, but at least got a glance. Haha. Angeline Sis also saw me, however I did not get to see her. =( Ohh, and Shijia jie also came! Haha, I was too focused on looking at her friend, trying hard to think where I have seen her before, and did not notice her presence. LOL.Exchnanged a few words and she left. Hope that we can go out tgt soon =)

2009-11-29T18:30:00.002+08:00

Stunned

Just came back from salon. I wondered if I did the wrong thing by spending hundred over dollars just on my hair =.= Heard from aunt that there was a promotion of $38 which includes rebonding, cut and treatment. However, the stylist told me that that would cause the hair to look dry and frezzy. So, I guess I was rash enough to accept another package of $108 for Shiseido one. Loreal's was far too ex for me, costing $158. Woah, I was scolding myself for being so rash. Haix, but did it anyway and even bought products for maintenance purposes. Somehow it seems not worth the money because my hair is shoulder length and the ends would curl at my neck area but I don't want to cut short. Well, anyway it was done le, too late for regrets now. Hope that it can last long long and stay as smooth as it is now bah =) Or else my 4 hrs there and my dear money will be wasted!

2009-11-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

Nocturnal

Shall be a late night again... Although I may be really tired after work at times, I still tried to stay awake for as long as possible, staring at my com. Because, every morning waking up early to go for work is dreadful enough, yet if I were to bathe and sleep right after work, life is really meaningless. Work, eat and sleep. Wow. That's why, I always tried to look for entertainment online. Whether is chatting, listening to music, browsing through new releases, watching music videos or variety shows and things like that, makes me feel I am alive. I dunno why too, but I would at least try to blog a few times a week, although being away from school makes my days so much more uneventful and not fulfiling.

Wanted to watch Korean, Japanese or Taiwanese dramas, however, I don't see the need to anymore. Because I would be deprieved of sleep because of it. Once I am attracted to a drama, I would try to complete it asap, because I hate to stay in suspense and want to know the ending. Therefore, all the more I hate those that have more than 50 episodes. But, I also hate those that are too less, because I will finish it too quickly and find myself staring into space for having nothing to do. Plus, starting a new drama is tiring for me, because I would be starting the chase again.

I actually realised that I dunno what the hell I was typing in the past 2 paragraphs. I guess I was really bored. Nevermind, all I was thinking about is to get back to secondary school life. I bet many would feel this way too, or they have yet to realise how fun and meaningful secondary school life can be.

Haix, when I was still a student, I complained how tiring and stupid it is to study tons of textbooks and do tons of papers. Yet now after graduation, I complain about work being tiring and tough.

人都是那么矛盾的吗？还是只有我不懂得知足呢？做人真的好累喔。

2009-11-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

Ring Ding Dong

Worked at Taka today, quite busy, considering it's a publi holiday. However, I guess sales was still not up to expectations bah. Hope that I can continue to work at Taka, or else I have to quickly look for a job elsewhere le.

Eric bought the famous minced pork noodle and iced-kopi o for dinner. Woah, super nice! Haha. Eat le also become happy le lor.

Realised that 2 guys at the nearby booth also thought I was 20/21 years old. Woah, heard le felt rather sad leh, I was seen to be 5 years older =( Haix, maybe it's time I changed my style? Haha. But abit bo pian leh, because go to work have to wear jeans leh, then other than t-shirt I dunno what is suitable to wear. Then obviously I had to wear sneakers to match and for comfort purpose. Seriously, wearing these also made me feel mature too.

The only bad thing working at Taka there is transport. Going takes around 40 mins, plus I always leave house late so have to take train instead. Moreover, I go home at around 10pm and there are so damn many ppl who take 162 everytime and all never alight until Thomson there. How irritating can it be, when I have to stand for 40 more mins even after work? =.= Damn it larh, why all leave near my house that area de.

Nevermind, off tomorrow. Shall be going to big aunt's house for family gathering and to eat Popiah. Yeah, long time no eat le =D Should be taking bus bah, just updated my ipod and shall spend my precious time listening to them on the bus =)

Sometimes i can't help but feel sad and lonely =/

2009-11-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

Without A Word

Work on Sun and today at Taka was rather alright.
At least I didn't feel as stressful, but felt rather happy instead.
Well, the guys at the booth next to mine were great ppl. Although I just came on Sun, they were being nice and started to strike a conversation. Yeah, still the same today, talked for quite awhile. =)

Haix, if only I knew earlier, I would have joined them, considering that their job is much more relaxing and they were a bunch of nice ppl to be friends with. Haha.

Anyway, hope that I will have more days arranged at Taka, at least I can travel by bus and enjoy my time working. Shall be working for 2 days this week only, hopefully can find entertainment at home, or I will be bored to death. Heh. Maybe I shall bake some cookies after cutting my hair tomorrow bah. See how first =)

Was eating at basement when I saw a particular someone. He was there with his mum and brother. I was totally stunned when I saw him, judging that ppl seldomly shop on wkdays and out of all ppl, I saw him. Anyway, I carried on eating and pretended that nothing happened. I wondered if he saw me and also pretended that he did not. Anyway, I believe that what I did was right, because if I were to call him, things would only turn out awkward. It remained this way ever since the stupid act.

Okay, there is no need to broad over the sad stuff. Off to watch my videos and do other stuff le. Aja~!

2009-11-18T23:15:00.002+08:00

I was crazy about you

Woke up earlier today because had to meet Yanling at City hall to go to Funan IT mall to buy her stuff. Was late because of personal reasons, so to prove my sincerity I shall treat her to her favourite Koi Hazelnut milktea soon. Haha. Wore my new sneakers that I had bought for a year and not even wear it once. LOL. Felt happy that I actually was shopping and get served, not serving others all the time. Hah. Sat please come soon! So I can enjoy my off-day, attend the afternoon wedding and buy our Roxy wallet soon! Hopefully S'pore also have those designs shown on the website.

Phew, realised I had already worked for 6 days in total already! Quite unbelievable, because everyday felt like eternity and i dreaded the long journeys home. Had been at the Bugis outlet and business had its ups and downs. Luckily today was pretty alright, so my mood was rather good. Haha. The best thing was that Erlin, Yucheong, Renjun and Shenghong came to 'visit' me. Hah. Felt super weird serving them lor. Had dinner tgt at Fish & Co. Felt rather sinful because I had been a good girl and skipping dinner for a few days already, yet today my trend was broke. Haha. But still alright larh, spent only $11 in total, due to the 'value meal' or something like that I guess. Chat and crapped around tgt. It felt really great, and at that moment, I seriously hoped that we were still in Zhss and all, spending more time tgt. Yeah, those days were really wonderful =) They were kind enough to accompany me to take away food for uncle at another hawker centre and walk back to my shop there. Must quickly earn more money so that I can shop more and attend the chalets! =D

Reached home at around 9.30pm, bathe and 2nd kor was kind enough to help me warm the soup and cook the macaroni they left for me =) Although it maybe fattening, but since he was so sweet I ate it anyway. He even initiated to pour a cup of grassjelly water for me=) I still left half of the portion for him to eat too=DD

Today was a great day after all. Heh. Hope tomorrow will be better! Fighting~!

2009-11-13T23:29:00.002+08:00

Still as ever

Finally, last paper is over already! Had been anticipating this day for months ago. Haha. But somehow, did not feel the kind of joy I imagined I would experience right after the paper. Probably because I already started slacking since last weekend, so there's nothing to be happy about. Haha.

Well, rushed home right after paper to wash up and change. Just nice both me and Yanling reached Orchard station at the same time, which meant that we were on the same train. LOL. Shopped around at Wisma in Forever21 and Cotton On. Had many things to buy since months ago, yet when I went into the shops no feel to buy sia. Damn siann, had been waiting for soo long yet this happened. Also never buy my facial products at Faceshop =( Haix, no new clothes...

Then, went to Ngee Ann City. Wanted to eat Crystal Jade Korean BBQ de, but realised it was more ex than I expected, so turned to Crystal Jade Ramen and Xiao Long Bao instead. Haha. But still quite happy larh, because for once I felt rich enough to go that kind of restaurant to eat and pay the bill myself. Heh. Was really very full due to the ramen and the xiao long bao was rather nice! =D

Next stop was Bugis. Shopped around and on first look saw many nice clothes. But don't know why after looking at it a few times it turned into not nice. LOL. Ended up only buying eyelashes and stuff for $30+ and nothing else le =.= At least Yanling bought a shirt lor. Haha. No choice, no feel today. =( Maybe I shall save up the money to shop next time round. Now I believe in 'See already must buy' this sentence, because today when I 'see' back the same things I wanted to buy, yet it seemed so 'unbuyable'. So bought none =.=

Then, had to report for training at Bugis Junction de outlet. Was really nervous at first, but Uncle WaiKim was really nice and friendly, so got used to it quickly. However, what I realised is that it is really not easy to be a salesperson. First, you need to know your products well, then you have to recommend your products to others etc. Yeah, it was rather tough to work yah, but I shall persevere! Although customers maybe unreasonable or whatever at times, it is still bear with it, bear with it and smile! Yeah, a lesson learnt today. It is really not easy to earn money, so next time I shall spend wisely. Stood for the whole day today, wearing the wrong shoes made it worse, because the flats made my heel soo painful. So tomorrow shall wear sports shoes or sneakers le bah, comfortable then can have good mood and do a good job. Lucky tomorrow work is at 1pm, so can sleep slightly later...

Woah, today actually quite tired working for 6 hrs just learning the ropes. So really have to buck up le. It maybe tough, but I rather learned now and suffer, rather than be worried for myself in the future. At least now I have the money and experience. Yeah~ hope tomorrow it will be better! Saw Ivan Chang walking outside Ajisen waiting for a seat, but I figured out that he could not see me, and I was also working, so did not call him. Anyway, also saw Cheryl Phua, an old primary school friend on the train home. We just called each other's name and silence. Quite happy that she actually recognised me, but was rather disappointed that although we even alighted at the same stop, we still did not talk at all. Not a single word. My only regret was that I never got to know my primary school friends well enough. So, I really hope that I would be able to keep in touch with my secondary school friends and be able to chat when we see each other =)

Shall quickly memorise the prices of the products, put face mask, sleep early and perform well tomorrow. Fighting~!

2009-11-09T20:06:00.002+08:00

Love Like This

Woah! Seriously loving SS501~! Their new album 'REBIRTH' is really very nice! When will it be imported to Spore? =( Hope that I will see it at HMV next time round and bring it home! Heard 'Love Like This' once on the radio and was hooked onto it ever since, yet I didn't realised is my dear SS501 de until today xD

2PM's new album have great songs too! Woah, all their songs soo nice, how many albums I have to buy? =.=

Haha. So working comes first before everything else then I don't have to worry le! =D

Saranghae! <33

2009-11-09T18:55:00.002+08:00

Rain

Finally chiong-ed finish watching ' famous 7 princesses' already, in 4 days. Haha. Quite an accomplishment. LOL. Had a really great ending, if only that also happen in reality.

Anyway, not in the mood to study at all, however there is 5 more papers to go. Argh. Now don't know what to watch already... If only I can start working now. Hmm but I guess working is really tough, no choice, can't afford to slack at home and get fat. At least work=money=shopping. Haha. Hope that these 3 months will pass by really soon and receive results, which can determine whether I get an Ipod touch or not. But I think I have to buy it myself in the end, since it is impoosible to get lesser then 14 points =(

I guess I better spend this period of time to think where I want to go after receiving results, plan for future?

Haiz. I guess I have to start studying again =.=
9pm then, now have to continue relaxing. Heh.

2009-11-06T22:02:00.002+08:00

Back

Woah, long time since I blogged. Actually quite sad, because I know I did really badly for some of the papers and now got no face to enjoy myself. Haix.

Anyway, next week are all the okay-papers, dunnid to memorise much or stuff like that. So today already started relaxing. No, in actual fact I already started slacking since 2 days ago, after the Physics paper. So obviously, today's paper Bio = gonecase. LOL. Really got no feel larh, it is dragging too long already. Now only looking forward to my Korean feast and shopping trip on next fri only. Yeah! Like Finally!

Parents also back from Korea le! Although no SS501 or what stuff, at least got many things that are nice! Haha. Dad bought one apple hoodie that is really cute! Too bad it is pretty thick, or else I would have worn it in S'pore already. Nevermind, wait till I go overseas next year. Luckily got my favourite Kimchi, masks and also other super nice food! Seriously, when I got the money, I will go to Korea during their winter season!!!

Ohh yah, got job liao! =DD
Shall go try out next sat, hopefully I can do well and be hired! Yeah!

Now really looking forward to the days after next Fri, plus the 20 Dec chalet! =) Although not many ppl are going =(

Okay, off to watch my Korean drama, 'Chuan Wen Zhong De 7 Gong Zhu' ! Didn't realise it was such a nice show in the past! =DD

2009-10-21T18:51:00.002+08:00

Don't Wanna Try

All motivation gone? Really feeling lost. These 2 days had been going back to school, because of lousy results. =( But, at least my L1R5 improved pretty much than prelim 1. Now very worried for ALL subjects, no confidence at all I guess. However, it seems that I am not doing anything about it. Still watching tv, using com and sleeping alot as usual. Everyone is working hard and chionging, yet I am still slacking. How?! Next Mon first paper already. As much as I want the 'O's to be over as soon as possible, yet I am afraid that it is approaching so soon. The amount to memorise for Humanities is really my greatest fear. Will I fail to finish memorising like prelim 3 for SS? That is really a great challenge. Fancy me watching 'Dead Or Alive' just now and blogging now when I am totally not supposed to. I guess maybe this shall be the last post here, shall continue after 'O's? Because there is really no way I can stop using the internet or whatever when I switch on the com, so might as well not switch it on in the first place.

I really hope everything will be fine.

Fighting~!

2009-10-18T23:51:00.002+08:00

All I ever wanted

Sometimes I really wonder exactly what parents expect and want from their children. Sometimes I felt that I understand what they are thinking and feel, but there are moments when I felt as if I don't understand them at all, as if we are complete strangers.

Although I know that they care about me, not wanting me to spend too much time travelling to and fro SCC and my home. However, it seems that they don't know the reason behind my trip to SCC. It is not because I don't like to stay at home, like to hang outside with friends or whatever, I simply wanted to find a conducive environment to study in, so as to produce the results that I know they would be happy about. In the past, whenever I sit in front of the com and the television, they will scold. Right now, even when I am trying to put effort into studying, they want in butt in again. They really don't understand what I am trying to bring across to them. I am doing all this because of them and also because of my own future. Yet this is the reward I get from them, nothing but accusation. I seriously hate it when I am being misunderstood. Just because of such a small matter would start an argument again. I thought that as I grew up, I will be more mature and handle things better. However, it seems that I screwed up things badly instead. I rather not grow up.

Next, an issue that I have kept to myself, and have been trying to resolve it, which is their trip to Korea. It was all planned and said that I would be able to join them on the trip to Korea. But guess what, there was a change in plan. There is no way I am going to Korea and instead, I shall be stuck in Singapore by myself as they enjoy their wonderful trip. When they asked me about whether to let them go to Vietnam or Korea by themselves, through the phone, I asked them to go to Korea, because I think it would be much better there. Although I am damn unwilling to let them go by themselves, at least it is better than wasting another sum of money to go to Vietnam then wait till after my 'O's then all of us go tgt, when in the first place they are interested to go Korea. Mum still keep asking if it was okay for me. Obviously it is not okay right? But what can I do other than to agree? You guys are the ones who will pay for the air tickets, not me. Yet you keep repeating your question again and again. I was already upset and on the verge of crying already, because I really want to go to Korea badly. I seriously feel like throwing my phone down and not give a damn can. I really hate it when you guys promised and did not fulfil what you have said okay. If that is the case, don't even make the promise in the first place and break it in the end. You will just end up losing my trust. Somemore, the date is when my 'O's just started, the period that I felt that I would need them to be there to encourage me the most. Yet, where were you? And what is the reason for going before my 'O's ended? Because they wanted to see the spring autumn or whatever leaves that will not be available after my 'O's, as by then it will be winter already. But I thought it will be a good chance to experience winter too, as it would be rare, somemore the scenery in Korea would be very nice. In the end, why don't want? Because winter very troublesome, need to bring many things and wear many layers of clothes. THEN, why travel overseas in the first place?!

"Next time you want then you go after you start working lor, or you go with your husband larh. We also old already, you think we have so much time to wait to go meh?"

Woah seriously, WTH. The first and the last time I went overseas with you guys was when I was 3 years old. How would I remember can? Then now, I want to make use of this chance to go with you and to create more memories, all these things are what I get in return. I shouldn't have thought of that in the first place, since they are selfish themselves. So when I finally get rid of my unhappiness over this issue, and hope that you will enjoy your trip, despite your constant conversations about this trip that made me feel so uncomfortable and bear with them, you cause so much more anger in me that I can't take it anymore and want to vent my anger here. The truth is, I never wanted to blog about all these. But I really can't take it anymore.

All I ever wanted is for you to care about me and be proud of my achievements, is it really that hard to be gained? Sometimes I wished that I never existed. Maybe 2nd bro should be the last child that you have, so I may not need to suffer all these misery.

These words that came out of my very mouth hurt me more than you would even have felt, because I disliked myself being this way more than you do.

Sorry to people who have came across this long chain of nagging. If you think it was a time reading, I apologise. But, it is a good way for me to vent my anger, or else I would have suffocated to death.

2009-10-18T20:55:00.002+08:00

最長的電影

As I looked out of the window, the sky was filled with white clouds.
And the first person who came into my mind was... Erlin!
Haha. The girl who share the same interest as me, which is to watch the clouds.
This led me thinking about the first long conversation we had, which was during a Pe lesson. Getting tired, we just sat down and discussed about the clouds, saying this lump looks like a man etc. Haha. Come to think of it, it was silly but fun. From then on, our topics were often about the clouds. =) Erlin, 今天有抬头望望天空吗?

Woke up late by 30 min, so quickly washed up and prepared to go SCC.
The most embarassing thing of the day happened right in the morning...
I was walking up the steps of the overhead bridge when I saw that many people are heading towards the SCC. Afraid that there will be no seats left, I quickened my pace. Just after 1 step, I fell. O.O I still said "Ouch, Ouch" until very loud. Then quickly I stood up and looked behind to see if there is anyone. There is 1 lady behind! She like hiding her smile larh. SO embarrassing! Argh. I thought I was not spotted. Haha. Somehow today good mood, laughed at my silliness and rushed my way to SCC, without cursing or swearing. Heh.

However, SCC was not as packed as I thought =.=
Luckily I had slight abrasion only, or else I swear I would be damn angry at myself lor.
Anyway, was not productive today. Because my seat was getting stuffy in the afternoon, then my shoulder ache started acting up again. =( So, went home early to rest.
Okay, shall send 2 essays to ms kaur and continue study.

Graduation day will always be remembered!

2009-10-16T18:29:00.004+08:00

Graduation

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Graduation (Friends Forever)

"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly "

In the past, whenever I heard this song and browsed through the lyrics, I just thought that it was meaningful and a lame song.. Who will listen to it?

However, I actually searched for this song right after I switched on my com. Now the lyrics make soo much sense to me, it is definitely a lame song, but a song that expresses what I am feeling for the whole of today. Till now, I still keep recalling the bits and pieces of the wonderful event today, where the whole class was in chaos, taking photos here, passing cards and gifts there, doing this doing that; the graduation ceremony, lunch reception and more photo-taking.

Anyway, shall update more about today later, after my photos get transferred.

2009-10-07T19:35:00.003+08:00

Hectic

Busy busy busy. Everyday of my life now is packed with programmes.
Not for entertainment purpose, but for academic sake.
Even from 7am to 8am, I am not spared.
For every Tue and Thur morning = Bio extra lessons.
Every Wed and Fri morning = English PACE program
Everyday after school, 1.50 - 2.30pm = Chem SSP
Thrice a week, 3.30 - 5.30pm = Physics specific chapters revision SSP

Cool Huh. Plus, the usual SSP are still on.
Yeah, was damn enthusiastic and energized yesterday.
But all energy worn off today, because I was damn tired.
I thought I can handle all these well, but I was half right.
I can't remain energetic every single day.
Hence, I shall sleep at latest 1.30am every night, and NEVER wake up at 4.30 am ever to study. Anyway, even if I set the alarm also can't wake up, so it is only disrupting my sleep, also making things worse than they already were.

19 days to 1st paper. Yeah man, hope it is over soon.
But I am still unprepared. =.= Really looking forward to working, earn quick bucks! =D

Anyway, phone spoilt already I guess. Cannot hear what others are saying over the phone. zZzZZ Luckily warranty not expired yet, so can repair for free hopefully. I think my phone seriously sucked, giving me so many problems, I think this is the 4th time I had to go service phone again. Really using the warranty card to its fullest potential larh hor. =.= Have to wait for 2 more weeks after I send for servicing I guess. When will I have time to queue then? Maybe on Fri.

Therefore, my objective of switching on the com is to search for themes for my backup phone today, because the ones in the phone is like WOW yah. After dinner = more studying. Yeah, there are tonnes of homework for today~! Soo fun! =D

=.= deceiving myself.

Anyway, last Sat was Mooncake festival.
Had family gathering with relatives and cousins, a great feeling=D
It was great to be chatting and laughing with them all again.
A sense of warmth and love <33
Yeah, love them! Played with sparklers after like a super long time?
LOL. Eric Kor even bought a box of 100 and mum also brought like around 50, aunt wendy also brought around 30 I guess. Haha, in the end only left about 20. LOL.

LOVES!

Okay, FIGHTING~!

2009-10-02T19:01:00.003+08:00

Unpredictable

Just read from Yahoo! News that there maybe another Typhoon approaching. Another natural disaster yet again. Although sometimes I complain about 'why am I not born in ___ ?' etc, sometimes I can't help but feel blessed that I am born in Singapore. Imagine if I were to be born somewhere else, I would have been dead. But, I ponder about things like 'why must we still study so hard, when life is so unpredictable and we may just be struck with any misfortune.' Perhaps it is just an excuse that I came up with, so that I can escape from the reality that I should work hard. If only we know of the future. Nonetheless, many said we should live life to the fullest. I don't doubt that, but that is really hard to accomplish? I mean, we spend 1/4 of our life maturing into adults, 1/4 to study, 1/4 to work and last 1/4 to wait for death? We would always miss opportunities when we were young, that are too late when we are old already. So, I always find life meaningless. Maybe because I just happen to be the one who is loveless and dumb, always losing out on everything.

Alright, enough about life philosophies or whatever, or else my brain will wander everywhere, affect my emotions and concentration in studies.

While I am typing this post, many out there are already suffering or even dying. God bless to them. I can never comprehend what they have went through. Never. So I should count my blessings.

2009-10-02T18:19:00.002+08:00

Two Hearts

SS Take 3 today. Badly done larh huh.
Blame it on myself for not being able to wake up at 4.30am to study Venice. LOL.
End up, I study Globalisation for nothing. Cool huh. Wrote D&D for essay instead.
But, at least now I know that actually I can memorise quite a lot of information, my brain capacity is not as bad as I thought. However, the bad thing is that SS is together with Chem, so I can only pray that Chem does not affect my memorising. LOL.

Anyway, today was a fast day after SS. Lessons went by smoothly.
After school, went to Kovan with Huiting. Had Bibimbab for lunch! Not bad, quite nice to eat and lunch special is at $4.80! Heh heh. Then it was chiong-ing Am business at Kovan Mac. Didn't know that it allows studying on weekdays! LOL. However, there is no space inside, because there are also many smart students studying inside =.= But, that did not deter us from studying! LOL. Was rather alright, surprisingly I was attentive and not tired, although I lack of sleep for this whole week. Only 4 hours a day max? Yeah, even Kor asked if I got beaten today because of my huge eyebags =( Oh, FINALLY managed to find the Physics 5-year series at TPY Popular! We were damn happy can! We searched many outlets, such as Bishan, SengKang, Kovan and Hougang Mall. Yup, hope it helps.

Nevermind, all those pampering business shall happen AFTER 'O's.
Yeah yeah. TONS of homework this weekend.

1. HCL essay & compre.
2. EL compre.
3. Physics papers (Anderson & Catholic High)
4. Chem paper (Catholic High)
5. AM (FSS, Anderson P1&2)
6. Bio (Anderson, 'O' level 08)
7. More than I can remember?

Next 2 weeks shall be super busy.
3 days per week for Physics tutorial for weak students. Especially F9 students like me, can I not go? Actually I am more than happy that this was arranged, but so many classes won't be as effective as I thought I guess. Hmm, then there will also be intensive training with my dear jie/shifu for AM =) Also, I should be seeking help from Mr Chong or Mr Goh for Bio. Not forgetting Chem, there should also be timed-practice and also coaching from Ms Ong. Then, History also shall have a session. Yeah, so I better get good results, all else all these would be for nothing.

Tomorrow should be meeting up with relatives and cousins for gathering cum mooncake festival celebration? Yah, so it means lesser time to do hw = spending less time in front of com = more time to do hw = less time to sleep. Okay, enough crap. After dinner is mugging again. I think it shall be Am and EL compre for tonight? Shall wake up early tomorrow morning to complete as many papers before I go for the gathering. FIGHTING~!

2009-09-25T22:21:00.004+08:00

Choices

Sometimes I wonder, do we really have choices in life?

We do have I guess, perhaps it is just that I think of things in a complicated way. Today the career talk was rather informative. However, at the same time, it made me much more undecisive. First, it was AJC. It was one of my goals back then, when I was really determined to go into JC. Yeah, the feeling came back again, where I just had the urge and felt happy by just imagining myself there. But, the big problem to me is of course GP. I am worried that I would just score really badly in it and waste 2 years of my life then. However, many people are saying that it applies to everyone, so I should not worry about it. The other talks on JCs were more or less similar. Then came SP and NP. Too bad I am still unsure of my goals, or else everything would have been much simpler. I am always comparing to a huge extent, where many people do not think the same way. 3 things I consider: Will I be earning a high salary? Will it ensure that I have many choices for my career in future if I were to get bored or something? Is it beneficial to me in future?

The answer is actually up to myself. Some say that passion is much more important than money. I am not sure about myself. I just tend to think so far ahead that makes me hesistant in decision-making now. Why don't I have a dream now?! =( Psychology is rather alright, but I still have some reservations about it.

United World College(UWC) also came down for a talk. It was damn tempting. Seriously. It just provides the kind of environment and life that I think I would be enjoying so much more. Imagine studying in Italy, Norway or even USA... I would love that kind of life, however can I really be independent? The first thing that came across my mind was my family somehow. 'Can I really bear to leave my parents in Singapore and live overseas alone?' Then many more came along. 'Are the expenses too much than what I can actually afford?' 'Will I be able to adapt to the new surroundings, doing everything independently and not having any friends by my side, to support me whenever I need them?' 'Is this really the kind of life I want?' Hmm, I don't know the answers myself. As much as I know I have to sacrifice IF I were to be selected, I would say I don't mind. As in, this is a great opportunity to me, to be exposed to people from all walks of life and a whole new experience of life altogether. However, it is really tough to be selected, DUH. 3 rounds of interviews is bad enough. Just talked to Dad about considering to submit my application after they sent it to me. And it seems like he isn't against it. But, who knows? Maybe he won't bear to let me go afterall, when I am selected. Haha. I mean, who will bear to let their youngest child and only daughter to go study overseas when she is just 16 and immature? Lol.

Anyway, it is actually a dream that is realistic, but somehow too far to reach. Yup, so I think perhaps I may just send the application and then see how it goes. Then also back to thinking about local institutions, much more achievable and realistic. Haix. 'O' levels is coming at a fast pace and I am sooo unprepared. LOL. Stressed? Of course. Not coming within myself, but due to external factors.

Anyway, was actually damn pissed off because of the TP grouping. Its like no Yanling, no my e2 clique! The bus journey was quiet for me. Lol. No mood to be high. Luckily, Yanling being her clever self, managed to get into my group! Yeah man, or else I would have been bored to death! =D The trip was rather alright for the part on social-science and psychology though=) Afterwards was window shopping and dinner around Tampines and a super long but enjoyable bus ride home! =DD

Well, perhaps it is good if my parents were to set a goal for me, so at least I have a target and motivation. But, they do not try to force me to do achieve anything, as in go into any specific course or whatever. They allow me to choose it myself. Good or bad? I don't know.

All I know is that now is mugging business and I am spending far too much time in front of the computer and I am still aimless. Yeah, now is free time until 11.30pm, where it is bathe and Physics again.

Ohh yah, SS501 is now on Teens and Teenage for the October Issue! Like the first time they appear in a local magazine I guess? Haha. Rather happy=)

Bought Teenage, because there is DBSK's poster! Yippee! Haha. But like a bit disappointed because SS501 was featured but the details they provided were more or else seen on websites already. Moreover, despite being featured, the poster for the magazine is not theirs =( Nevermind, at least I still have DBSK's in exchange =D

Fighting~!

2009-09-24T17:15:00.002+08:00

Love bye love

Xiah Junsu damn cute! xD
Too bad DBSK not coming to Singapore for concert=(
Hmm, hopefully the contract problems all that will be solved and DBSK will still be together!
Then like that can continue to see Junsu in action. Haha.
His voice is really special and his laughter is soo cute!
Heh heh, boy fever again.

But at least I think that being crazy about Korean singers are better than being secretly in love with any other guys in reality. I mean, it hurts a lot more right. The more you think or hope, the more disappointed and hurt you will get. So, I would rather choose my oppas over anyone else. Although as much as I would like to be engaged in a relationship or whatsoever, now is not the time I guess. Moreover, I decided to leave it to fate, since I gave up suffering alone already, because it is pointless. No matter how much time and effort I put it, everything always backfired and come to a bad end. Therefore, I would rather devote all my love in supporting my oppas in their career, so as to see and also hear more of them. =D Now is many people are really into Korean stuff lor, and I TOTALLY support that! Yeah, SS501, DBSK, 2PM, SHINee, Ft Island, Suju, SNSD, Brown eyed girls, 4minute, T-ara, f(x), Big Bang, FIGHTING~! =DD

Anyway, today received the news that we had to RETAKE SS paper again.
Haix, was rather sad, but have to face it eventually.
It can be considered a revision for 'O' Levels too, so be it then.
Now to 'O's, jsut felt soo stressed out of the sudden. There is not a day where this big letter never appears in my life. LOL. What to do... Have to start chiong-ing business again.
After 'O's is a thing that I am looking forward to. There are soo many plans to be fulfilled!

1) SHOPPING, SHOPPING, SHOPPING
2) BUY Body and Facial products (time to pamper after mugging)
3) Get a job!
4) SS501 CONCERT
4) Kbox
5) WATCH SS501, DBSK, SUJU & many other videos!
6) Yoga lessons?

Yup, and many others down the list that I can't think of now.
Ohh yah, heard from Yanling that there maybe grouping tomorrow for the TP visit, and it seems like I will be lonely without her or even my clique tomorrow =( So make it a Free-and-easy thing alright teachers? =D Students sure will appreciate it as we want to enjoy ourselves there. Anyway, tomorrow would be career talks all day long, NO lessons! Good and bad larh huh.

Shall go mug Physics already, although I have given up on myself.
Hope that I can at least improve and achieve a B4 at 'O's.

Junsu oppa fighting! Saranghae<33

2009-09-23T13:18:00.003+08:00

Hopeful

If only the 'O' levels will pass by quickly.
Although I am still unprepared, I still pray for that.
All this waiting only makes me more frustrated and want to give up.
Now, it is only bear for 1 month or everything will be wasted.
Just downloaded a lot more Youtube videos, including 2PM and T-ara's songs.
And also DBSK's songs =) Too bad don't have SS501...

T-ara and Supernova had a new song, Time To Love.
Very catchy, is rather sad but nice=)

2009-09-23T10:38:00.002+08:00

Lost

Don't know why, but somehow I have lost my sense of direction.
Everything just don't seem right.
Gave up on Physics, just did not have the motivation to study.
Yeah, I shall get the lowest again. Cool. Haix. Things just aren't going smoothly.

It is the 2nd day ever since I sprained my neck.
Feeling alot better already. Seriously, I think I don't ever want to crack my neck again. It was fine like for so many years? But on Mon it just wasn't fine.

Woke up at 11 am, sat up and 'cracked' my neck as usual.
But there was a damn sharp pain and 3 consecutive cracking sounds heard.
I was super shocked and in continuous pain. Walked to my parent's room toilet to brush teeth. I was just holding my toothbrush on one hand and the toothpaste on another. I don't know how the hell I saw like double image? I was frightened and knew that something was really wrong. The next thing I knew was that I saw bright light, walked a few steps forward and blacked out. When I gained conciousness, my neck was more painful than before, my head was on the ground, with a bump on my forehead and I was really weak. I just can't call out for help and tried to crawl up slowly. I don't even know how long I blacked out for. Dragged myself to the dining table and ate my carrot cake with my head propped up with my left hand. Mum realised something was wrong and asked. All I said was that I think I sprained my neck. LOL.

" Ger ah, 你刚才是不是在厕所里弄掉了东西?"
" 有, 我 lor."

Then after that my parents were all worried and Dad brought me to the Chinese Physician downstairs. Woah, he really make until my neck super pain but felt a little better only leh. Cost $40 somemore! Haix. I really damn lucky. Seems as if I am writing a narrative right? LOL.

Yesterday morning Kor was good enough to send me to school.
While I was wearing my shoes, he carried my bag, opened the door and stood there waiting for me. I was really shocked that he actually took the initiative to carry my bag, although I can handle it. He even used the $20 coupon (for OPC) so as to be able to drive the car around for the whole day, but partly also because he wanted to send me to another Chinese Physician at Tiong Bahru. Yup, was really grateful to him. =)

Yeah, felt alot of care and concern from my family because of this.
However, it would be not worth the pain to get this kind of love right?
As in, normally they just don't show it.
Anyway, hope that I can recover real soon and concentrate on studies again. ^^

Maybe for a start-off, I should blog less often =.=

2009-09-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

Contented

Life has been rather fruitful now I guess.
I don't know why, but somehow I can feel that at least I am happy everyday.
Yeah, it's a great thing, because this makes life much more meaningful.
Although studies is not a fun or enjoyable thing, you at least feel a little sense of achievement when you finally understand a particular chapter or so. Well, currently trying to put in my best for Chem, because I started to find it interesting and study-able. Most of the Prelim papers are over already. All I can say is that as long as I work hard, there is no need for regrets. Well, sad to say, I failed to prepare myself well for some subjects. But nevermind, must stay positive and put in more effort.

Anyway, today went to JooHou's house to relax after Chem paper 1.
Yesterday was considering to study alone at SCC today right after the paper.
But like crap can, because this morning I knew that I won't be able to focus, because I am really tired, so it is pointless even if I go. Well, turned out to be fun! There is much entertainment and all. Yup, there are like many people? Joo Hou, Yu Cheong, Zi Hui, Erlin, Jun Ying, Kaymond, Sheng Hong, Ivan, Chin How and me. Wii was super duper fun! It's really funny watching at how the guys overreacted when they were playing. Haha. Also, Mahjong! Woah, it's like a long long time since I play. Also brought along kor's psp, because initially I was afraid I would be bored. Haha, but it was great=)

Felt as if 'O' levels is already over and we were in the midst of celebration. LOL.
IF only. Haha. But soon it will be over in like 2 months? I don't know exactly how many days because I am afraid to count.

Shall download more songs and update my mp3!
Or else I will get bored~
SCC tomorrow again =)
But it is gonna be the KILLER, PHYSICS.
Oh my, please let me stay awake and at least finish reading through the whole textbook tomorrow.

2009-09-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

Heartbroken

Aww~! Hyun Joong Oppa was diagnosed with H1N1 on 8 Sep 2009 and his condition is pretty serious!
Luckily, now he is recovering very quickly. However, heard that he will have to be hospitalized for half a month.
Hopefully this won't affect the Asian tour much. =( Moreover, the members of SS501 will replace him to attend some events and performance on stage. Should have chance to watch them all perform de, but now only have HyungJoon, Yongsaeng and Kyujong performing 'U R Man' & 'Because I'm Stupid'.

Luckily Yanling told me just now, if not I would still be kept in the dark.
LOL! Didn't expect this as around the mid of last week I just browsed through the Ssangchu blog and this has not occured yet.

Well, considering JaeBeom of 2PM also left because of some idiotic netizen, this is a bad bad month.
Jay come back soon alright!

Oppa, get well soon!
Saranghae! <3

2009-09-10T18:59:00.002+08:00

Dazed

Just came back from SCC awhile ago and is enjoying my dinner(Mixed Rice) while typing.
The rice is sooo disgusting, hard and everything, should be left from afternoon till now.
The side dishes are very delicious, but the auntie super 'ngeow', the amount she scoop is like can count one larh. 5 small round pieces of tofu, 6 pieces of sweet and sour pork dice and 7 slices of potato.
Wow, you really did your maths huh? =.= You should have taken a break and let the kind uncle serve me. =/

Reached SCC at around 9.45am, was afraid that there will be limited spaces, but to my surprise, there is only 3 people inside, including Fel =). The same batch of people from yesterday came, except Corrine. Perhaps she has something on or needed a break. Dear Yanling overslept and did not come as a result. Haha, sleepyhead! =P
Only managed to revise like Chap 2 of Am Tb? I don't know why i spent 3/4 of my time there doing this... Perhaps I really is slow at Am and suck at Indices, Surds and Log. Ohh yah! I saw Shengxun when I was about to go to the study room. Judging by his attire, he should be going to the gym. I was rather shocked when he said 'Hello.' LOL!

I understand why I am getting fat now. Because, out of the 8 hrs I am there, I kept eating. It's either Van Houten Assorted choc, Prawn Cracker or Fisherman's Friend(Cherry). Luckily FF is sugar-free! =D
Plus, I managed to have some of those snacks left to give to my dear brother and make him fat too! Wahaha.

OKAY I am so damn irritated by Facebook. Since I signed in for less than 10mins in MSN, the stupid mail notification keeps popping up and making the stupid noise. Just checked mail and guess what? There are 12 emails in less than 10 mins! =.=

Anyway, neck is aching badly. Shall quickly eat my dinner, bathe, chiong am and sleep!
Tomorrow is yet another SCC day =))

IE8 can't open Hotmail, Mozilla having problems with Facebook and Blogger having loads of problems.
What is happening to the technology now huh?
Safari is also loading slowly for certain websites. Can anyone tell me what Internet browser I have to use now? =.=

2009-09-09T21:11:00.002+08:00

I'm waiting for you

Guess what I was waiting for today?
An empty space at SCC. LOL!
Waited alone at the busstop for 45 mins.
Saw Yiwei alighted the bus, but she walked very fast so did not manage to get my butt off the chair to call her.

Yup, I was 3rd while Yiwei is 5th on the waiting list.
Afterwards Corrine called me to go in to entertain me. Haha.
It's like a mini Zhss sec 4 gathering lor!
There is Corrine, Yiwei, Boon Kiat, Ke Ying, Fel and me!
Chatted for awhile near the stairs there. Then I waited for a total of nearly 2hr then got people 舍得 leave lor. Awhile later Yiwei also got her seat.

Was revising Chem calculation then gave up.
Wanted to start on Organic Chem but got some stupid idiots keep making soo much noises. Damn irritating larh. Sit opp. me somemore, keep banging the table. Wth. Damn pek cek larh, really felt like crushing my paper then throw 1 at them, then I act like nothing happen. But obviously I did not. LOL. Really can't stand them, JC student still soo immature. Argh! Just because my mp3 is low-batt can't listen to songs then have to bear with this kind of shit. =(

Shall go earlier tomorrow, so as to not suffer the same fate as today. =)

Jaebeom, stay strong and come back soon okay!
2pm needs their leader. All the HOTTEST support you! =D

2009-09-07T12:29:00.002+08:00

Araso

In the midst of packing, I shall make a mini schedule for today.

1) Pack files
2) Complete Stalin ws
3) Find songs, transfer
4) Use com
5) SLEEP!

LOL. Although its little, but I bet I will be damn tired after packing, judging by the piles I have in my room. All I can say is to go step by step.

FIGHTING~!

2009-09-07T11:57:00.002+08:00

Speechless

Haix, study session ruined AGAIN.
Can't find many notes and worksheets.
So today = Sort out files day. =(

I wasted my weekend, now i waste the first day of the holiday.
I seriously hope that this holiday will be different from others, whereby I can really concentrate on studying everyday.

History and em ssp tomorrow. Don't feel like going =/
Hope I can wake up tomorrow...

2009-09-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

Emptiness

Somehow it seems like I lost all my determination to study AGAIN.
Siann. Actually planned to pack all my worksheet and notes.
But instead, spent the whole day in front of the computer.

Tomorrow is Mon already.
Seriously have to drag myself to study at SCC, if not I would really lose my momentum and stop studying totally.

Don't know why but all the emptiness came back.
Suddenly felt so lifeless and loveless.
It has been a long time ever since these feelings appeared.

Plus I am getting fatter too.
Can't help but feel even more depressed than I already am.

Please, just go away. I don't want to experience all these ever again.
Somebody please knock some sense into my head.

2009-09-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

Blessings

Now then I realised that Hyun Joong, Jae Joong and Seung Hyun are good friends.
Yeah!

2009-09-05T10:41:00.000+08:00

PIG

Argh,did not go to CC to study.
Woke up at 8.50am, brushed teeth but went back to sleep again =.=
Just woke up again 10 mins ago. Decided not to go, since I have no feel even if I go there also can't study one.

Maybe I shall pack my room and arrange my files all that.
Had been wasting quite awhile to look for Bio notes all that, so it's better to improve on it.
Family later maybe going to Army Open House. Haven't decided whether I want to go or not.
See my mood bah =)

Okay, the renovation works upstairs is super irritating!
Alright, so now SS501, Ft Island, 2pm, SHINee, Big Bang, DBSK, other Korean bands and the artists on my iTunes playlist is soo gonna flood these idiots!

2009-09-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hot Issue

Prelims started, all I can say is to work harder and harder during the 1 wk break.
Yup, today went for lunch at Kovan Pizza Hut with Ivan, Huafei, Hongren, Yanling and Ruiying.
Pretty enjoyable, guys are jokers as usual. Hahas.

Had like 6 hrs to spend before I had to return to Zhss for NP POP dinner.
So the girls then went to the Central at Clarke Quay to walk walk.
Nothing much though, wanted to buy Chip keychain but was too ex. $8 =.=

Then went back to school at about 4.30pm.
Managed to only sleep for 15 min in class till 5.45, because it was rather stuffy and uncomfortable to lie on the table and sleep in class. Somehow, my dear squadmates one by one gathered in 4e2. There is a special connection between us though, never leaving anyone alone. =) Was rather sad that we did not have full attendance.

Anyway, the bunch of sec 3s were very adorable. Really grateful for their efforts in preparing Faris and I a present. However, the 'Motherly' award I was presented made me feel so old! Haha. Just suddenly had the thought that I should treasure everything I am given from now on, cards, presents all that, so I can have something to share with my husband regarding my teenage years.. Heh.

Started to lose faith in bejeweled.. Haha. Cannot obtain high score so disppointed and want to give up already.
Anyway, I am glad that Yucheong sort out his thinkings and found his feel in studies liao. Jiayou bah!
I think I shall go study alone at the Serangoon CC tomorrow bah, no feel do other stuff. Ohh yah, I forgot to return my books today! Must return if not have to pay money to the library.. So wasted!

Oh! Just now went to 4e2 class blog and realised that Erlin the superweed has uploaded the bbq pictures. Realised that actually the sky that day is beautiful! =) Yeah, had quite a long time laughing over some of the silly pictures. Moreover, I realised I have been chatting to Superweed just about the clouds and the skies for a few occasions already. Well, I guess we do have something in common despite not knowing each other very well. Great improvement=)

I shall go browse blog, you-tube and sleep. Byebye=)

2009-08-30T16:12:00.001+08:00

Unlock

Study session at Serangoon CC yesterday.
Had to sign up as Passion card member and also pay additional fees to use the study room. Spent a total of $20. But it is worth it though. Super condusive, because no one is talking. The room is super quiet. Managed to complete 1 EL and HCL essay. LOL. I think my EL essay was written wonderfully, had soo much feel when writing. Hope I can get high marks=) Ohh, Yanling and I also met Keying and Boon Kiat there! Yanling was really good at her prediction that we would meet someone we know. Haha.

Parents just booked air tickets to Korea. But I can't go. LOL. Super sad, because that means that I can't get to eat the original Kimchi nor buy SS501 stuff. Super siann. Haix. What to do?! They want to go when their is Autuum leaves to see. But, if they were to wait for me, it is winter already, during mid-november. All I could do is to accept. I seriously hope the my parents will win 4D and TOTO to have more money to bring me there this year after my 'O's, then I can also buy many many SS501 stuff to Singapore. Or else, I think I have to wait until tons of years later when I earn enough money for an air ticket and thousands of dollars to spend there. Perhaps a rich husband would help sew the big hole in my pocket. Haha.

Shall study only at the evening, since my relatives and cousins are at my house currently. I realised that kids really grow very fast. Take Junming as an example, he did not even want to talk to us nor look at us at all in the past, always so shy and timid. But right now, he can seriously speak fluent english and also want to play around. Yup, he is getting cuter and cuter year by year =D. Too bad blogger is still having problems or I could have uploaded his picture.

Anyway, tomorrow is Teacher's Day cum Aces Day. Argh, don't really feel like joining the Vertical run. Still considering whether I should go back to mayflower or not, maybe I shall meet some old friends only. Heh.

Hyunjoong: Nuga mweoraedo my love nae yeojaran geol mideo nochi ankesseo my girl [No matter what they say my love
I will never distrust the fact you are my girl] <33

2009-08-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

Haru Haru

Had been sleeping very late nowadays, felt very tired everyday.
Lessons are random, doing essays, papers, going through them or getting drilled.
Yeah, that's life. Practice makes perfect. LOL.

Went shopping with Tiffany and Yucheong at J8 after Am SSP.
Saw a hoodie-shirt at Esprit, wanted to buy it soo much, but it costs $49 if I remember correctly.
Considering to buy a hoodie-cardigan at fox, only at $29, good deal.
I realised that I have the strong urge to spend money on clothes again=(
But I don't have enough money to buy everything.
Priority is a pair of thick-framed specs, the hoodie-cardigan and new hairbands.
I am getting irritated with my super thick hair and I don;t want to be caught by Mdm Lau.
I need more shorts from Cotton On too. Argh! If only I can work now... Money money, quickly fall down on me=D

Shall go studying with Yanling at Serangoon CC tomorrow, hope it goes smoothly.
Previously I got so irritated by my itchy eyes that I only did 5 maths questions.
Heavy load this weekend, 2 EL essays, 1 HCL essay, 1 Chem paper, EM and AM papers, History WS plus revision for SS and Biology. It's the prelims next week! =/

2009-08-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

10 Out Of 10

Okay, a short one today because I have to chiong my Zhss Physics paper, Anderson Em paper, Em tys on probability and revise Chem on the many chapters I am unclear of, as Ms Ong is going to drill us yet again.

Was rather pissed today, because of a super cute couple i met on the way home today.
The female just crashed into me when the bus braked.
I took that as an incident and I gave her a small smile, I am not sure whether she apologized.
Nevermind, I am in a good mood today so I shall forgive and forget.
Then the guy's elbow knocked into my jaw damn hard as he was keeping his ezlink into his back pocket.
And that arrogant stupid ass just gave a glance and looked in front as if nothing happen.
I bet my tongue would have been bitten off if I were to be sticking it out when my jaw was hit.
Hello?! Just because you taller and older means you don't have to say sorry is it?
Woah, the cocky face of his really made my blood boil!
Seriously, they should realise that I stared hard at them from the time they alight until the bus moved off.
If looks can kill, I think they died billions of times can.
Spoil my day.

Anyway, a great relief was that I mixed up the dates for Prelim 2.
It is next week instead, which means that I have abit more time. =)
Scared the hell out of me. LOL.

All I need now is to regain my confidence back for the 3 sciences.

2009-08-22T12:02:00.000+08:00

Fuck you

New song by Lily Allen, rather cute.
Anyway, reached home an hr ago.
Met Hinye at circle line to go for SSP, what a coincidence, haha.
Then Ms Tan Chye I suddenly appeared and tapped me when I was on the escalator at Serangoon station, gave me a fright. Haha.
Then saw ex-ci outside zhss gate, so many coincidences today huh.
Had Emath SSP from 8.30am to 11am, did zhss prelim p1 08.
Was rather easy, but made many careless mistakes.
Today have to stay at home again, mum working and I also don't have money to go shopping.

Have to chiong hw today, because tmr need to go Aunt's house.
But suddenly lazy to do.. Alright, I shall start at 1.30pm.

Yesterday was talking to Yanling about our shopping trip to Bugis for my big-framed specs, and realised that next week is the start of prelim 2!
I didn't believe her until I looked at the calender. Gosh, I thought we still had 1 more week to revise. Biology is the earliest science paper, yet I am still unprepared.
Because Mr Goh had to cover up for another tr's class during our Bio period, we can only look for him after school on Thur for SSP. Yet, we have like so many chapters unclear and need to revise when we only have 1 day to revise? =.= Somebody please just hit my head and get all the facts in for me.

2009-08-18T19:53:00.001+08:00

Talk & Talk

Had O's oral today. Can only say that I will pass, but not do very well. Reading was bad, too nervous then pronounced many words wrongly. For picture discussion, was disappointed that I can't express some of my points properly and end up repeating my words. Conversation was rather bad. Kept started my sentences with 'But' and 'Because'. Anyhow gave examples. Had 5 questions, on: guilty, good example/role model, bad example, improvements for healthcare system and smoking. LOL. Gave them my Biology and SS knowledge, hope it worked. 1 male and 1 female examiner, was rather friendly and all, will smile. Yeah, they were great but I was bad. Sorry for hurting your ears. =/

Stayed back to study with Huafei until around 7pm then left school. Haha. More like talk then study. But, nevermind, it was enjoyable=)

Settled dinner with bread and all the ingredients that are available at home. All these just for the contacts. LOL!

Anyway, watched a video on Khun from 2pm, that Yanling sent. OMG, he is very cute! I did not realise that earlier.. His wink is so captivating and mesmerizing! Haha. But I am still loyal to my Hyunjoong and SS501! Wahaha. Look won't die though. =D

2009-08-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

COLOUR my life

Blogger and Facebook seem to have some problems.
Nevermind, anyway today was rather fruitful.
Went to Toa Payoh, wanted to buy coloured contacts from the Spectacle Hut there. But, the guy who we wanted to avoid, was at this outlet today. Because we did not want to pay extra $20 for the consultation fee.

Went to Bishan one instead.
The guy who served us was very kind and cute.
I got a 3 tone Ash Grey and 2 tone Violet one.
Both my eyes the degree had a large difference, one is 25 and the other is 175, so bought 0 degree one.
Haha. Spent $36+ in total. Broke!
Kelly and Yanling then came to my house, so that Kelly can teach how to wear all that.
Had to cook maggi mee for them. Not once, but twice, because they shared 1 packet but not enough. Haha. For once got people say my maggi taste nice larh, thanks arh kelly=))

Too s super duper long time before I can get the contacts in larh. Woah, super pek cek. Somehow the surroundings seem blurry when I wear the Ash Grey one, I wonder if it is because it is 3 tone then like that.
Was rather painful when I wore the Violet one, so only tried one side. I realised the 2 pairs I bought are rather outstanding, as in it is very obvious that it is not normal Singaporean/Asian eye colour larh, so I am afraid that people will give me weird looks, especially the aunties.

Woah, I seriously got the urge to buy those kind of black full frame oversized specs, with no degree of course. Now I wonder when I will get to wear them lor, perhaps I shall go study with Yl they all on weekends. Haha. So happy!

Bad/Good news is, tomorrow I will be having my O's EL Oral. Like so fast, very scared now. Better get over it quick. Let's hope that my examiners are alright and that I have a clear sweet voice tomorrow afternoon. Haha.
Shall be the 7th person I think, the middleman. So I guess I will bring some notes in to revise, and my water bottle to help me=D

2009-08-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

Doubly-doubly Happiness

Today is a wonderful day! =DD
Although I can't wake up on time to go to Bishan Library.
Woke at about 11.30am instead of 8.50am.
Met Yanling at Toa payoh to buy guide book for Physics.
Managed to find 1 after quite a long time.
Actually wanted to buy 1 for Bio, but can't seem to find a good one, shall seek Mr Goh's opinion on tue.
Wanted to study at coffee bean, but on the table there is a slip of paper that said 'No Studying'. Wth, was disappointed seeing this.

Wanted to try our luck at Bishan, so took train there.
Ended up, Bishan got 2 coffee bean and both also had the same shit of paper.
Initially, wanted to buy a black diamond earring at 77th street, but thought it was a waste of money because I just bought a red one yesterday, so did not.
Yanling also wanted to buy a white Billabong wallet, but because of me, she also didn't buy. Haha.
Bishan Library also no space to study, borrowed books and left.
Settled down at Mos Burger to study, bought Iced Peach Tea. Great!
Did a few structured qns for physics Bukit Panjang then stopped.
Went to Popular then the arcade. Had a round of basketball and Time Crisis 4, woah, scored super bad.

Later went to Mini Toons, saw something like velcro that is used to clip onto hair.
There are many lunch boxes there lor, very cute but expensive. Bought a small rubbish bin with frog(keroro?) printed on it instead, since mine is spoilt.

We stopped outside comics connection. Were about to leave when something caught my eye. 5 guys and a symbol that looked so familiar. It is SS501! Woah, super happy and we chionged into the shop. Inside had alot of Hyunjoong and SS501 stuff. Finally, they are available at comics connection. Previously there aren't any of their products. There was keychain of SS501, Kyujong and Yongsaeng, but no Hyunjoong =(. So I bought the SS501 one while yanling bought Kyujong's. There were also posters of them, but I expected them to be expensive, so never buy nor ask. Woah seriously, it was like heaven! There were mirrors with their photos, plastic folder and jig saw puzzle I think. There was also a magazine with news on SS501's new album and their concert. But it cost $14. Luckily it was in Korean, so I won't understand even if I bought it. Haha. There was also one with 2pm, and Yl wanted to buy as there was 2pm on the cover page, her cute Khun, but it costs $28! Luckily, the same scenario applied for her too.

Actually wanted to buy only the keychain and mirror only, but while waiting at cashier, hesistated whether to buy the file or not. In the end, bought it. Why must it by placed at the counter?! Haha. Shall use it for Poly to put lecture notes, so as to not waste nor spoil it. Cost me $18.70 in total. Heartpain, but still damn happy over it. Ahh~
And and I realised the mirror super cool! can open to change the pictures! =DD

Argh, blogger has a problem with the image uploader, so can't upload the photos I took =(

Waited for 88 with Yl, was rather a long wait. While talking, saw a guy who turned around as he walked past, and made me wonder if I was talking too loudly.
And afterwards, her bus arrived and I went to opposite to take bus. Realised that I had to wait for 11 min more before any of my buses will arrive, so walked home.
In coincidence, the guy who turned around just now was also walking the same way home. Somehow, I managed to catch up with him after 2 bustops. On the way, he seemed to turn around quite a few times. Don't tell me he thought that I was stalking him=.= Overtook him for awhile then reached opposite my house. Waited at the traffic light and turned around, hoping to see him. But, he was gone. Felt rather sad somehow, weird. Haha.

Ohh yah. Kelly said the colour contacts arrived, but mine the degree was ordered wrongly! Woah, super sad. So i shall have a refund. Anyway, today saw that spectacle hut having promotion, buy 2 pairs of colour contacts get 2 pair for free! Each pair costs $28. Maybe will go with yl tomorrow to see!

White shirts and the same path home.
I watched your shadow as you walked.
I thought we were meant to be, but we were not.
Yeah, it was nice meeting you, although it was merely 20 mins.
Somehow, everything felt right.
Perhaps I should go to j8 more often on sunday evening so I can meet you again.
I shall let fate decide then. Haha.
But, I am not a stalker.

Okay, I think I am getting a little 'Girl over Boy' syndrome.
Don't care about me.

2009-08-15T19:55:00.002+08:00

In Your Smile

Got to DBS bank and settled GIRO stuff already.
Afterwards went to Bishan Library. Reached at 9.45am and I thought I was too early. But, there are many people waiting outside already, as always.
I expected to only have a few people as I thought Sunday is popular and people may want to sleep later on Saturdays. Met Zhihua and Jocelyn while waiting.
Everybody practically ran in when the doors slide open. Was lucky enough to get a seat at the 3rd floor. Managed to complete Amath paper 1, Physics mcq and a few chem mcq. Reached home at about 2pm and had lunch.

Went to AMK hub for some grocery shopping with family then headed onto Whampoa Market for dinner before sending big kor to work. The fish soup was super duper nice! A lot of meat and the soup was very sweet. Each person cost about $8+, worth the price=D

Home sweet home and waiting for the 'White Chicks' movie to load before I watch.
Then later will be more studying again.
I think I shall go to Bishan Library to study again tomorrow.
However, all the waiting, squeezing and running to chope seat is seriously over-exciting and troublesome. Shall decide tomorrow, depending on whether I can wake up or not..

灰色的音乐塞满黑夜 High的像麻醉

2009-08-15T01:47:00.003+08:00

失落沙洲

Don't feel like sleeping although my eye muscles are strained.
Decided to study alone at bishan library after the bill thing tomorrow.
Therefore, I want to take a break for today, perhaps it's time for a movie, since I have transferred quite alot from kor's com. All the more I need to wake up early tmr, so I get 'chope' a place in the library.

只是当又一个人看海, 回头才发现你不在, 留下我迂回的徘徊.

2009-08-15T00:15:00.003+08:00

Maybe

Supposed to be e-learning day, but sec 4s and 5s still have to report to school.
Was actually great, as there is only 4 subjects, SS, Physics, Em and EL.
If it were to be eld, we would be given tons of homework, so I rather attend school.
However, today is considered a little dry, due to the fact that out of 4 subjects, 3 are timed-practice, excluding physics.

Was rather angry and disappointed with myself over SS. Just because that I don't know how to phrase source b as being against employment of foreign talent, i skipped the 'challenge and conclusion' for part a and b. Completed part c, then finally thought of the phrasing for b when doing part d. Wanted to go back to what I had left out previously, but there was no time! I can't even finish writing the evidence for part a. After that was complaining to many people like Hinye, Huiting, Peiyu and Ruiying. I guess I took the timed practice seriously, good effort=) Haha.

Went through tys for physics, thus was not feeling tired.
Was impressed with myself that I could complete the tys for 5 chapters last night.
Although to others it is nothing, to me it is a significant accomplishment.
Yeah, hope that I can find back my confidence in physics so i can at least improve until I can pass. After physics ssp, went to look for Ms Wong for oral practice.
Did rather badly. She was kind enough to burn the notes in a cd for me and Lee Chin, as there is many files. Must remember to return it to her on Monday though.

Then, proceeded to school library to study with Ren Jun and Lee Chin, since I did not want to go home so early. Yi Heng joined us after his oral with Ms Wong too.
Left school at 5plus, then went to Bishan library to continue studying with Yi Heng. Managed to complete only Zhss Bio prelim 07 mcq and 3/4 of Xinmin Chem mcq, which I had not done when Ms Ong went through. Went to Popular buy stuff, met an ex-ci of zhnp, but did not acknowledge each other's presence. Reached home at about 7.30pm.

Anyway, recently many people fell sick. I guess the bacteria is spreading in our class rapidly. Ever since prelims when Allan fell sick, one by one every one got it.
It was also caused by the bad weather conditions. Joo Hou was absent for 2 days already, and now Bo Kang and Jin Chun are also down. Sheng Hong, Kaymond, Rui Ying and me had just recovered and now it is them. I wonder who will be next...
But of course it would be best if everyone were to stay healthy.

Played Bejeweled, but no high score! only managed to hit up to near 102,000.
Sad, but eyes too tired to continue already. Alright, rested a lot for whole day, so I shall start on my homework after my bathe. However, can't turn in too late, because tomorrow have to wake up early to go to the bank to settle GIRO for phone bill...

And I pray for big aunty to get well soon.
Go away, you damn virus from nowhere.

2009-08-12T15:40:00.005+08:00

入戏

Yeah! Managed to come home early once again.
SS ssp canceled, heard there was emath, but not for all.
Now only me and edric sir is online. =)) super early!

Saved lunch money for today, because had donuts!
Had 2 in fact, thanks to Ms Tan Chye I buying for NPCC and Ms Wong Tong Liew buying for her EL bands, Buck=D
Actually had sandwiches prepared, but they are now in the fridge.
See later hungry then eat.

Realised that O level EL Oral is just next week.
Gosh, that was fast.
And now my neighbours decided that we speak in EL, so weird! Haha.
Because got used to speaking chinese to Jialing and Huiting, especially.

Anyway, thought that it will be a good time for me to take an afternoon nap or slcak for today, judging by the fact that I slept at 3am yesterday again.
Somehow these few nights did not sleep well, my mind could not stay blank when I am tired and needed sleep.
Many things just flashed through my mind, specifically is studies and the images from the horror movie on sunday night. 7th month coming soon also, so it is best if I stop thinking too much and get more sleep. Haha.

Recently felt rather contented with myself, having to complete much homework and stay awake during lessons. However, the big issue is lack of sleep still.
But, now the effort I am putting in is not enough though, 76 more days. =/

School life now is alright, feeling happy everyday somehow.
However, there is always work to be done in class and at home.
PE was great today! Finally can exercise and sweat.
Everyday is occupied with homework, if I were to take time to go for a run, I am sure my homework will be neglected, because I will definitely sleep after that.
Yeah, net-basketball is what I call the game for PE.
Enjoyed myself very much, laughed alot in the process.
But, the result of being sweaty and sticky is bad.
Plus, I have a huge blister on my left sole and 2 blisters on my right. Stupid shoes!
Imagine having HCL lessons after PE and before recess.
Seriously rocked. =.=

Argh, feeling quite tired now already.
Better go play a few rounds of bejeweled at facebook then it is time for homework.
Wednesdays are set high score days for bejeweled, as said by Renjun. Haha.
Physics tys[4 chaps] , em proving ws, hist essay and sbq[supposed to hand in last thur], chem catholic mcq and zhss paper to complete, bio wb and prelim papers to complete, el situational writing and hcl essay [by nx mon].

Wow, I did not realise there is sooo much. zZZZz
Here we go...

All I wish for is happiness in my life everyday =)

2009-08-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

Untitled

Somehow, can't think of a suitable phrase to describe my feeelings today.
Today was rather tiring, having to sleep at 3.30am yesterday.
Plus, today is a triple science day, yippee!

Physics was alright, just going thru wb, but i still have a lot of chapters of tys undone!

Biology was with Mr Goh, the trainee. He is quite cute, haha.
Yeah, his teaching was okay, very detailed, but abit slow.
I thought we were very slow for completing 40 mcq and 1 structured qns only, but the other class was just as fast. Yet to complete heredity of wb, catholic high timed practice and prelim papers 06 & 07 .

Chemistry was okay, since I managed to complete the Xin Min paper, except for the last few essay qns. Stayed back for timed practice for catholic high paper. Finished in 1 hr, but spent the next 50 min to go through those qns I am unsure of. I guess I am slowly gaining confidence in Chem somehow, probably due to Ms Ong's useful mindmap revision =) Let's hope I will do better and get at least a b4 in prelim 2 =D electrolysis notes, zhonghua paper and catholic high mcq undone!

Speaking of prelim 2, it is only 2 weeks away!
And in the morning as I was walking past the parade square, the countdown to O levels caught my eye. 77 days! Then I realised that there is around 9 days more to revise each subject. Nevermind, just do my best. As I think if I start to stress myself, I will be more slack than I already am.

Heard from parents that we may be going overseas right after my O levels.
Perhaps Taiwan or Korea. Woah, it's a super exciting trip to look forward to!
Taiwan = shopping and more shopping plus eating!
Korea = eating kimchi, shopping and buying SS501 stuff! Seriously, I will shop like mad for their stuff lor, judging by the fact that it will be much cheaper there.

So I really hope that this will act as a source of motivation to work harder.
No promises though, because I realised whenever I said that I will do something here, I end up doing none mentioned. So now it is really up to my determination.

Shall sleep early today to pay for what I had lost last night.

Being happy is the remedy.

2009-08-07T22:08:00.002+08:00

Lollipop

The colours are back! And I have gotten the colours award today too.
Haha, LOL. No money, super disappointed.

Was sick for the past 3 days, so did not blog.
Reached 38.2 degrees celsius, considered low compared to last time.
But get really tired easily today, despite sleeping for the whole of yesterday.
Could not pay attention during physics ssp.
Should not have gone to school at all.
After that walked around at j8 with corrine and yanling, but I did not feel like watching movie or doing anything much, because felt rather tired and my throat was killing me. Sorry for spoiling the mood! =/

Totally no feel to do homework!
Argh, I seriously feel like giving up now.

Just finished watching 'Mr Vampire' part 2 and 4 online.
Others watched before already. Super funny! Haha.
Soon I am going to find a website to watch English movies online and rot my days away.

I don't care ehh ehh ehh~

2009-08-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

Goodbye

Woah, i realised i have so much to say today.
3rd post already, hah.

Listening to goodbye by secondhand serenade.
The lyrics are really meaningful.

"Goodbye"

It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe were the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we've been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
'
And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Goodbye

Bye
Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

2009-08-03T20:58:00.001+08:00

DAMN. Just read the horoscope for tommorrow.
It's gonna be a BAD BAD day again.
For my precious friends who have been by my side, please bear with me.

"You could find yourself very busy dealing with a number of different things at this time. You might be feeling a little opinionated and may not be on the same page with some of the important people in your life today. So it'll probably be hard to avoid some misunderstandings with those closest to you right now.

Even if it might be tough, it’d probably be a good idea to talk things over with someone and try to resolve any difficult issues if you can. You might not be all that careful with your words right now though. So just try to be a little more aware of the things you say today. "

Perhaps I should stay mute so as to not create any more troubles for myself,
when I already have tons of it unsolved.

Many may think that I am just being ridiculous or over-superstitious.
But I believe in what I see, because it had been correct for me for too many times already.
However, I guess my fate could not change no matter what I do.
So all I could do is to be more mindful of myself.

I am sorry if I hurt anyone unintentionally.
If there is any serious problem, just tell me straight.
I can't read the mind of yours, because I am not a psychologist yet.
Some other day perhaps, you can look for me when your world has collapsed on you, just as mine did so long ago.

The more others want to push me down, the stronger I will be to go against.
Because that is what life is like, to never back down.