I'll erase and erase love by emptying every drop from my heart.
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Monday, June 8, 2009 @ 8:53 PM
Broken smile It's been a week since the June holidays started. Lessons had been going on as usual and it soon became a habit. Waking up at 6.30, wash up and off to school. Nothing matters, except for the bag load, it gets heavier and heavier. Or perhaps it's because my heart is heavy. I don't know. Walked to the bustop today with Yu Cheong. Felt a lot better with his company somehow, perhaps because there is nothing I need to hide. He has been a great friend, always being there when i need someone. I would try to do otherwise too=) Well, hard times passed with his help. But i guess there are still many hard times that have yet to pass, so he don't have time to rest. Haha. A big thanks to him! Well, I see it as a blessing to have so many friends that care about me, so I hope that it will stay on like this for as long as possible. Anyway, what I know is just that June is fully booked for studying, except for the weekends to chill out. It's time to prioritise, since my results was not good all along. But at least I still have my dear Jiejie to study with me, a kind of consolation. It's been hard on her yah, because I just could not keep still and tried to irritate her. But I will change=) Her maths exam is today, was bad according to her, but she surely can do it one! Good luck for her Econs paper tmr! =D Bought a file at $18.55 just to put my stuff! A large sum of money, but i hope it will not come to waste. Just like what Jiejie said, "It will all pass very fast, just 5 months more, just persevere! Afterwards you can enjoy all you want." True though, but I don't know how long my motivation can last. For 5 more months hopefully! Now just looking forward to the sushi feast on sat, as a kind of stress relief. There's a Ngee Ann Poly 'course trial' for a day, hope I can get someone there with me=) Why must I always witness the scenes I hated? It's alright, what I have to do is simply give up. Cheers to all who have your heart broken, welcome to the state where nothing can mend it ever again, unless someone does. Can I have this person earlier? So there won't be so much heartache. |
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