Friday, May 28, 2010 @ 3:20 AM
Z Monster
Z Monster won the fight already. I am feeling damn tired now, want to sleep...
Only finished compilation for Demand, which is 1/2 chapter. So 2 1/2 more chapters to go.
Alright, knocked out already >.<
Time to sleep!
@ 1:24 AM
The End Is Coming
So... Have many assignments left to complete for elearning. Argh. Shall chiong Bcomm 1000 word draft, Bstat and Infa online quiz. Had totally no mood to do anything in the afternoon, so slacked all the way by watching tv and irritating eldest kor. LOL. Currently feeling very awake, so shall make use of my energy. Hopefully can compile all the notes and ppt of all Miec chaps included in common test. It falls on nx Sat! :O Super scared, because after today's Elluminate session, everyone seemed to be unsure of how to apply the concepts and even misunderstood the concepts, especially me! So must pull my socks up already!
Just finished compiling chap 1, which I took hrs! =/ 3 more to go... Chiong chiong chiong~
Anyway, shall cut hair tmr! Yeah, have been waiting for a long long time already. Since tmr is a public holiday and eldest kor also want to cut hair, can hitch a ride. Heh. MUST keep reminding myself not to believe whatever hairstyle the hairdresser recommend. Because I suffered HUGE consequence previously = cut my hair short. NEVER again! I don't want to go thru the painful process again. Yup, = layer hair and
get rid shorten my damn long fringe. Woots! Hopefully the layering will not destroy my still-quite-smooth hair due to rebonding last nov. Or else I will be frustrated over bad hair day everyday =(
As I am typing, I realised I am getting more and more tired, my eyes are drooping down already...
Alright enough talking. Off to revision... ^^
Wednesday, May 26, 2010 @ 10:44 PM
Let Me Be The One
Went back to sch for IS Modules, despite it is elearning wk =/
Super siann, cos start at 8am somemore, means have to wake up even earlier.
Anyway, S&W was rather slack today, but weather is DAMN hot. Can't stop perspiring.
But luckily I found out the 2 guys in my grp are solo-ist and are very gd at bball, so I saved the effort of running around. Heh. But, both teams thought draw= no punishment = 30 pumpings. But end up we all did it. Anyway, no kick larh! Haha, I also never ran much today, so treat it as exercise. LOL.
Idea Jumpstart was rather tiring, not because we have to do physical exercise or whatsoever, but more of mental exercise. LOL. Need come up with 3 ideas of an ideal wallet for partner, draw it out and write up on it. Carries 10% of overall marks, plus it is individual assignment, so racked my brains really hard. Hopefully my art today is up to standard, although it never did. LOL.
After that went for INFA makeup lesson at blk 72. A long distance away from previous venue, blk 50, but luckily the path home is near blk 72, so makes no difference because I have to passby there anyway. Mrs Linda Seah is really great man! She really sacrificed her time just to make up for the workshop I missed last fri due to prize giving at Zhss (never regret going there! =D), unlike someone. LOL. Nevermind, dun mention it, spoil my mood only. Yeah, so she went thru MYOB patiently with me.. I realised MYOB is a damn cool program! Saves alot of time compared to working manually on paper. Yeah, if only we can use in for all asssignments. Haha, impossible. Yup, Mrs Seah (INFA tutor) & Mrs Teoh (MIEC tutor) are the best! <33
Anyway... Took 74 and changed bus at Marymount road instead of 52, because it is taking longer and longer to reach the NP bus stop =.= Then just nice eldest kor want to go swimming, so faster chiong-ed lunch and went with him. Sun is so BRIGHT and HOT today, although it is partially hiding behind the clouds. Thought I did not get darker, but in the end I got sunburnt. Argh, pain! But then luckily I am clever enough to apply sunblock on my face, so my face is slightly burnt only =) If put too much later my arms and legs soo dark but my face still soo white like so fake. Look like tomato now, arms and legs super hot. But I think my arms are far redder than my legs now.. Hopefully after the redness fade, the tone of arms and legs are the same. I just can't stand being white. Wahaha.
So wasted my time since I came back from swimming until now, when I have far more important things to do. Research and stuff to be completed tmr for elearning. So many tutorials due nx wk not done. Moreover next Sat MIEC common test already, followed by others. Yet, I am feeling damn tired now, probably staying under the scorching sun for too long and wasting my energy on doing stupid things online. LOL. Siann, wanted to sleep early today, but I think need to burn midnight oil again =(
Btw, SS501 new album is released! Although it is a MINI-ALBUM AGAIN, but the songs this time round they are damn nice! =D Yeah, now more and more new Korean songs are adding to my list! =DD
Fighting~!
Perhaps it is the best that I don't see you anymore.
Because somehow, the images of you are slowly fading when you are not in my sight.
The time I spent thinking of you is getting lesser and lesser.
This makes it easier for me to let go...Maybe in the first place, it is not even considered as love.
Thinking of you already became a habit.
Sunday, May 23, 2010 @ 4:56 PM
Drunk On Sleep
Recently, did not set alarm as I did not have a good sleep when sch starts. Due to doing tutorials late at night, or simply keeping myself awake until at least 1am everyday. Don't want to sleep early, as I want to live everyday to the fullest. But of course, I have troubles waking up in the morning, feeling tired and all.
No matter how late I slept these days, be it 1am or 3am, I still wake up after 12pm. Causing my neck to ache badly. It is not because I am deprived of sleep, it is just simply because I did not want to wake up. Had been dreaming of a particular person ever since friday night. This had not happened before, because at most it will only last for a short moment once in a few months. However, this time round, it lasted for 2 whole nights. I did not dream about anything else but him. It may have felt good when I was asleep, or more like when I was in the midst of dreaming. It was pure bliss and happiness more than anything else. It made everything that I wished for happen. But, when I woke up, I felt empty, empty to the maximum. It was really bad, everything that happened disappeared in a split second, but bits and pieces of the dream lingered in my mind. It seemed so real, yet unrealistic. How I wished that I would never wake up, and stay in that dimension forever.
Although it felt great in the process, but I rather it never happened. In reality, it will just torture me with tons of flashbacks, repeating again and again. I know that it will never happen in reality, but then it just kept appearing, adding more scars to my heart. No matter how hard I tried, I just can't erase it from my mind.
Right now, I realised how hard it is to forget him. Although I would always say that I had long given up on him, the truth slapped me hard. I really missed him.
Please, someone just save me from this agony. I am really getting tired from these pointless and foolish thoughts.
If I tried harder, will it change the outcome?
Because of you, I am really torn.
If only you can understand and also return the feelings...
However, I know that it is impossible, even in the future.
One day, I want to shout out loud, that I am okay without you.
Friday, May 21, 2010 @ 10:57 PM
Like A Fool
Ended lessons at 12pm instead of 4pm, because going back to zhss for prize giving. Wahaha. Damn shiok. Went home, cooked maggi and ate with yanling. Changed then went to zhss. Actually intended to take bus one, but I guess I took up too much time to dress up, so took circle line instead, or else maybe late.
Felt a surge of feelings overwhelming me when I was taking the escalator up at Serangoon station. Felt that my surroundings were so familiar yet so strange. It has been months since I came to Serangoon, excluding the day when I came back to collect 'O's cert.
But it was really great to be able to step into zhonghua again, our second home =) The greater thing is that many familiar faces are there! Yeah, many came back to collect prize, while others came back to visit. ^^ At first felt awkward, because majority were JC students wearing their uniform, the fraction is like out of 15 students, only 1 poly student. LOL. I think even lesser larh. Wearing my own clothes like very outstanding, because totally different. Somemore, they have more common topics to talk about amongst themselves, then I feel like outcast? But luckily, as time passes by, managed to blend in well =) Because we have known each other for at least 2 yr, sure can communicate one. And yah, the feeling of being in sec sch came back again. Just feel really comfortable nice to hang out with these people again. It is just so different but in a nice way. Felt really happy to see them! ^^
Was surprised and glad that Mr Chong actually recognised and remember me! Haha but I think it is also hard to forget me, judging by the fact that I always topped the bottom of the class.. LOL. I realised that teasing students is his hobby. For example, the conversation he had with me:
"Ehh? You also came back to collect prize arh?""Yah."
"Best in Biology izit?""HAHA. No larh!"
"Haha. =D Then what prize you taking?""SAC award"
"What is that?""I also dunno leh =.="
I thought he DM so everything will also know.. Haha. But anyway, he is a really great tr and my B3 for bio was all thanks to his teachings =)
Collected prize, watched performance and went to have refreshments at canteen. All the ex-students keep taking photo tgt. Haha, soo cool! Although we were all from diff classes last yr, but we all jus gathered tgt, united like one =) Yeah, it feels good. While collecting our bag at auditorium, some ppl jus grabbed the mic and entertain. Then it is more photos! Haha. We were enjoying ourselves, claiming the audi as if it was ours. LOL. No one was there to monitor us anyway. Heh. The refreshments was so-so, NP one is alot better! Haha. Many of us were like asking ppl to go join queue again to take the desserts like cream puff, cheese cake and brownie. Huafei and dunno who came back with another round of cream puff and brownie, yet it was all grabbed before I could. =/ But luckily, Bokang also went to take many cream puffs, everyone started snatching again. But he was nice enough to leave one for me like I had just told him to. Yeah, Bokang-na still the best man! =D
Then spent time talking, taking photos for 4e2 as well as Npcc. Haha. Wonderful memories =) Then the other grp left first, leaving yanling, zhihua, liting, uchan and i the last few who are still in the canteen. But met the other grp at sch gate, as they were discussing about where to go. lol. Took bus to AMK, wanting to Kbox. But then when we reached, we realised the rate was $25++. Too expensive, so left to look for Huafei and Sibyl. By coincidence, we met Lim Pin at AMK Hub. Haha. He was waiting for Zihui to reach. Then just nice Zihui reached! Haha. Was looking forward to meet him as he never attend the prize giving due to cca. Glad that still have a chance to meet him after missing the prize giving and it had been such a long time already. Pee pee still cute as always. Haha. But left after awhile. Huafei and others left for Suki Sushi for dinner but Yanling and I were tired and lazy to walk, so went to buy Koi. Had Honey red tea. NICE as always! Somemore I had not drink it for such a long time already, because whenever I happen to pass by Bishan's outlet, the queue is damn long. Yah, but a pity that I bought medium size, not enough to last me at home... Haha.
Elearning wk next wk! But then I bet there will be tons of assignment to complete, plus I need to go back on Mon for KCC and Wed for IS modules and INFA makeup lesson, so nothing much to be happy about, just that can sleep in later. Heh.
Anyway, common test timetable is out! Argh, feeling damn stressed now. I also realised that the test clashed with my lessons and test! Because for 3rd and 4th June I have lessons plus 5th June, Sat, I have MIEC paper! Haix, the week arrives then see how.. But I don't want to miss out 4E2 Chalet! =(
My greed prevents me from erasing you from my mind.
If only time can stop and let me stay beside you forever.
I missed you.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010 @ 6:13 PM
Change
Cough not getting any better, worst thing is that sometimes my throat will feel super dry out of a sudden and start coughing non-stop. This is worst especially in buses and class, probably because the aircon made the atmosphere dry and I am the one who is so embarrassed for keep coughing and disrupting peace..
Was raining in the morning, really want to lay on the bed and go back to sleep, but then have to wake up for sch. Argh! Somemore today lessons start at 8am, have to wake up even earlier... Due to wet weather, had a change of venue for basketball, from bball court near the Loft, to outside squash court. Did stretching/ conditioning instead, or Yoga, like zongquan said. Haha. Was very tiring and strained my muscles, because the first thing he told us to do was to climb the huge steps (amphitheatre type) by running and then walking down using the same steps by the side. Doing it is no problem, but continuously doing it for 15 times was hell man, sure those muscles stretched and ached. LOL. Then had to sit and bend down to touch our toes, with partner pushing our backs downwards. Worse still, the last 3 that we did had to be under the condition where our partner will push us while moving into men's style push up position =.= Pain man, it hurts. Luckily Yunrui is light, relieving pressure, but I can't say the same for her. Another worst one was to place our legs at the step above and lie down, keeping our butts close to the step. Then we have to use our abdominal muscles and force ourselves up to touch our thighs, then knees then toes. Can't do at first, but then managed to later. However, like what many say, no pain no gain. Gain = able to touch toes while PAIN = lower back blue black. LOL. I guess it was due to the force exerted on my back against the hard ground while forcing myself up. So constant hitting leads to blue black. Super pain now, even if I lie back onto the sofa also hurt larh, siann. Pasted those medication kind of plaster, better get better =/
Anyway, was released very early today. Usually it stops at 9.30am, but today it stopped at 9am. Like woah! Too bad I only brought my shower foam along, as half an hr is not enough to wash hair and then go to class. But then today have 1 hr free instead =.= So only bathe without washing hair... Then we still had time to eat breakfast lor. Wanted to eat cheng teng one, but then the aunty say they don't sell already. Then went to drinks stall, wanting to get bird's nest drink, don't know why but got feel drink today, but aunty also say don't have. Walao, I think it is time for this canteen to renovate liao larh, everything I saw at the signboard and want to buy don't have. Lazy to buy other stuff and settled for a bottle of green tea instead.
Met Wanting and Zongquan at bus stop, took 74 tgt. Because I had been waiting for 10mins already yet 52 have not arrived, I don't want to be an idiot and wait for 30 mins again, like the other day. Talked during the journey and was entertained by their lame jokes. Especially Zongquan, he had soo many to say. Haha. So time passed really fast and alighted before them.
Then, came back home and watched youtube videos and allkpop-ed. LOL. Watched 'Happy Together' featuring Rain and Kim Jong Kook and I realised that Rain very cute sia, especially when he smiles, his small eyes and when he swings his head to get his fringe out of his face. Haha. But none-the-less, he is damn man! Haha. Too bad the new episode of HT featuring Rain and Hyori is not subbed, cannot understand what they say. Hopefully some Korean faster go sub then I can watch le. I bet it will be damn nice to watch larh, considering both the cuties Hyori and Rain are tgt in the show. Looking forward! Heh xD
Monday, May 17, 2010 @ 10:20 PM
Vulnerable
Die die die. Now cough starting already. Shit sia, my ulcer and throat pain like siao, lips super dry then now cough. Cough until throat gets more painful than before. Haix. Faster recover pls.. I am suffering =/ Somemore on fri going back to zhss, i don't want to go up the stage and look like a freaking sick idiot. Argh.
Anyway, only managed to finished compiling INFA notes for 1 lecture =/ I guess it is because alot of time is wasted on drawing the tables in MSword and due to me taking my own sweet time. LOL. But at least i did not waste my time like any other mondays, slacking away. After this shall complete today's INFA tutorial correction and hand up to Mrs Seah on thur afternoon when I meet her for make up lesson on fri. =)
Cough, please don't take my breath away. It is damn irritating, spoil my mood!
Saturday, May 15, 2010 @ 10:53 PM
Lethargic
Woke up feeling hot and shitty, and I knew something was wrong. Walked a few steps and my world was spinning. Then took temperature, 38.5 degrees. Crap, fever. Argh. Had flam (?) stuck at throat and when i spit it out, it was filled with blood. O.O
Dad and Mum accompanied me to consult doctor, turned out that my throat skin was peeling hence resulting in the blood. So painful, hate swallowing now. The ulcers in my mouth are not helping either. Felt really bloated and vomit. Hmm, I wonder if I was studying too hard to cause me to fall sick. LOL. Maybe on ystd the Bcomm presentation frightened me, then Bstat was bad as I did not do homework and felt like sleeping, then the temperature for the rm during Infa was very low and freezing. Okay, I don't know what I am talking about.
All I can say is that the main factor is due to the bad weather and going in and out of aircon rm. Lol. Having aircon in all the rms in NP was supposed to be a benefit, but right now it seemed to be a disadvantage? Lol. Slept for the whole day and did nothing meaningful.
Hopefully tmr I will be feeling better and can complete my tutorials for nx wk. Haix.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 @ 4:47 PM
Goodbye My Love
Elearning day! Woots~ Slept until 11+am. Super shiok! It had been such a long long time ago since I had the chance to sleep soo long. Previously always stay awake until 1+am then had to wake up at 7am to prepare for sch. =/
But then, it came with a price = start on ITB project. Haha. Discussed with Sarah, Louise and Xiaofen. Split the jobs and we are back into our previous partnering again, SS and XL. Haha LOL. After this post I shall quickly finish my part, send to Sarah and complete the rest hopefully on fri. We all don't want our wkends to be touched. Haha.
S&W tmr again! Best is that it will proceed like the previous lesson, then it will be super wonderful and enjoying =D Basketball ♥♥
But then the bad news is that Bcomm individual presentation is coming up, which is on fri. Argh! Have not thought of a suitable storyline yet. Siann... Somemore I don't know whether others prepared their formal attire already not, I am seriously reluctant to get one. =( Shall ask SXL later. Heh.
Today's whether was great! Started raining since the afternoon, not so warm at all, or else my headache will come again. But then tonight better not be humid and all, or it will get damn hot.
If only I can stand in the rain, then the tears can't be seen.
Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 10:13 PM
I Go Crazy Because Of You
Sch is starting to be.. A lil busy and quite siann? Haha lol. Totally love mon to wed but hate thur and fri. LOL. Somehow i dun appreciate bcomm, bstat and infa lectures. But the tutorials are damn fine =)
Anyway, there is bcomm individual oral presentation nx wk. Yet, I have not prepared my topic yet, only told tr that I would be talking about future and teleportation. Wrong choice, LOL. Too bad. Today was supposed to attend kcc de stuff, but well, yanling and I made a wise decision. Haha. Went shopping instead. Haha. Went to G2000 and wanted to buy formal attire in advance for presentation one, but then don't have the feel. Somemore all that I saw was short-sleeved, which means have to buy jacket to wear also. But I don't want to buy jacket, nor am I sure whether short-sleeved ones are acceptable or not, so bought none in the end. LOL.
Then slacked at my home again, watched family outing ep 1 and 3! Damn funny sia, seriously, it is a damn damn nice variety show! =DD Especially with all the regular guests in season 1, you cannot miss it! Yanling then left and I am left alone at home to 'nua'. LOL. Watched tv and searched youtube videos to waste time.. Was feeling very full so skipped dinner. But then parents came home and had bought me kfc whipped potato, so ate it. Thought I could lose weight by skipping today's dinner, but eating whipped potato at 10+pm sure made me gain weight instead lor. Haix.
Shall do hw tmr, cos the day after tmr is mon, so hopefully I can finish ALL tutorials tmr. Ohh yah, best thing is, nx tue no sch! Because it is elearning day for ITB. WOOHOO~!
Yu cheong is a really nice guy with many gd qualities that cannot be mentioned in 1 post only. LOL. See I so gd =)