I'll erase and erase love by emptying every drop from my heart.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 @ 6:51 PM
Don't Wanna Try
All motivation gone? Really feeling lost. These 2 days had been going back to school, because of lousy results. =( But, at least my L1R5 improved pretty much than prelim 1. Now very worried for ALL subjects, no confidence at all I guess. However, it seems that I am not doing anything about it. Still watching tv, using com and sleeping alot as usual. Everyone is working hard and chionging, yet I am still slacking. How?! Next Mon first paper already. As much as I want the 'O's to be over as soon as possible, yet I am afraid that it is approaching so soon. The amount to memorise for Humanities is really my greatest fear. Will I fail to finish memorising like prelim 3 for SS? That is really a great challenge. Fancy me watching 'Dead Or Alive' just now and blogging now when I am totally not supposed to. I guess maybe this shall be the last post here, shall continue after 'O's? Because there is really no way I can stop using the internet or whatever when I switch on the com, so might as well not switch it on in the first place.
I really hope everything will be fine.
Fighting~!
Sunday, October 18, 2009 @ 11:51 PM
All I ever wanted
Sometimes I really wonder exactly what parents expect and want from their children. Sometimes I felt that I understand what they are thinking and feel, but there are moments when I felt as if I don't understand them at all,as if we are complete strangers.
Although I know that they care about me, not wanting me to spend too much time travelling to and fro SCC and my home. However, it seems that they don't know the reason behind my trip to SCC. It is not because I don't like to stay at home, like to hang outside with friends or whatever, I simply wanted to find a conducive environment to study in, so as to produce the results that I know they would be happy about. In the past, whenever I sit in front of the com and the television, they will scold. Right now, even when I am trying to put effort into studying, they want in butt in again. They really don't understand what I am trying to bring across to them. I am doing all this because of them and also because of my own future. Yet this is the reward I get from them, nothing but accusation. I seriously hate it when I am being misunderstood. Just because of such a small matter would start an argument again. I thought that as I grew up, I will be more mature and handle things better. However, it seems that I screwed up things badly instead. I rather not grow up.
Next, an issue that I have kept to myself, and have been trying to resolve it, which is their trip to Korea. It was all planned and said that I would be able to join them on the trip to Korea. But guess what, there was a change in plan. There is no way I am going to Korea and instead, I shall be stuck in Singapore by myself as they enjoy their wonderful trip. When they asked me about whether to let them go to Vietnam or Korea by themselves, through the phone, I asked them to go to Korea, because I think it would be much better there. Although I am damn unwilling to let them go by themselves, at least it is better than wasting another sum of money to go to Vietnam then wait till after my 'O's then all of us go tgt, when in the first place they are interested to go Korea. Mum still keep asking if it was okay for me. Obviously it is not okay right? But what can I do other than to agree? You guys are the ones who will pay for the air tickets, not me. Yet you keep repeating your question again and again. I was already upset and on the verge of crying already, because I really want to go to Korea badly. I seriously feel like throwing my phone down and not give a damn can. I really hate it when you guys promised and did not fulfil what you have said okay. If that is the case, don't even make the promise in the first place and break it in the end. You will just end up losing my trust. Somemore, the date is when my 'O's just started, the period that I felt that I would need them to be there to encourage me the most. Yet, where were you? And what is the reason for going before my 'O's ended? Because they wanted to see the spring autumn or whatever leaves that will not be available after my 'O's, as by then it will be winter already. But I thought it will be a good chance to experience winter too, as it would be rare, somemore the scenery in Korea would be very nice. In the end, why don't want? Because winter very troublesome, need to bring many things and wear many layers of clothes. THEN, why travel overseas in the first place?!
"Next time you want then you go after you start working lor, or you go with your husband larh. We also old already, you think we have so much time to wait to go meh?"
Woah seriously, WTH. The first and the last time I went overseas with you guys was when I was 3 years old. How would I remember can? Then now, I want to make use of this chance to go with you and to create more memories, all these things are what I get in return. I shouldn't have thought of that in the first place, since they are selfish themselves. So when I finally get rid of my unhappiness over this issue, and hope that you will enjoy your trip, despite your constant conversations about this trip that made me feel so uncomfortable and bear with them, you cause so much more anger in me that I can't take it anymore and want to vent my anger here. The truth is, I never wanted to blog about all these. But I really can't take it anymore.
All I ever wanted is for you to care about me and be proud of my achievements, is it really that hard to be gained? Sometimes I wished that I never existed. Maybe 2nd bro should be the last child that you have, so I may not need to suffer all these misery.
These words that came out of my very mouth hurt me more than you would even have felt, because I disliked myself being this way more than you do.
Sorry to people who have came across this long chain of nagging. If you think it was a time reading, I apologise. But, it is a good way for me to vent my anger, or else I would have suffocated to death.
@ 8:55 PM
最長的電影
As I looked out of the window, the sky was filled with white clouds. And the first person who came into my mind was... Erlin! Haha. The girl who share the same interest as me, which is to watch the clouds. This led me thinking about the first long conversation we had, which was during a Pe lesson. Getting tired, we just sat down and discussed about the clouds, saying this lump looks like a man etc. Haha. Come to think of it, it was silly but fun. From then on, our topics were often about the clouds. =) Erlin, 今天有抬头望望天空吗?
Woke up late by 30 min, so quickly washed up and prepared to go SCC. The most embarassing thing of the day happened right in the morning... I was walking up the steps of the overhead bridge when I saw that many people are heading towards the SCC. Afraid that there will be no seats left, I quickened my pace. Just after 1 step, I fell. O.O I still said "Ouch, Ouch" until very loud. Then quickly I stood up and looked behind to see if there is anyone. There is 1 lady behind! She like hiding her smile larh. SO embarrassing! Argh. I thought I was not spotted. Haha. Somehow today good mood, laughed at my silliness and rushed my way to SCC, without cursing or swearing. Heh.
However, SCC was not as packed as I thought =.= Luckily I had slight abrasion only, or else I swear I would be damn angry at myself lor. Anyway, was not productive today. Because my seat was getting stuffy in the afternoon, then my shoulder ache started acting up again. =( So, went home early to rest. Okay, shall send 2 essays to ms kaur and continue study.
"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love But it came too soon And there was me and you And then we got real blue Stay at home talking on the telephone And we would get so excited and we'd get so scared Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
[1] As we go on We remember All the times we Had together And as our lives change From whatever We will still be Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs And we make the big money When we look back now Will our jokes still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break every single rule Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man? Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan? I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la: Yeah, yeah, yeah La, la, la, la: We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? I guess I thought that this would never end And suddenly it's like we're women and men Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly "
In the past, whenever I heard this song and browsed through the lyrics, I just thought that it was meaningful and a lame song.. Who will listen to it?
However, I actually searched for this song right after I switched on my com. Now the lyrics make soo much sense to me, it is definitely a lame song, but a song that expresses what I am feeling for the whole of today. Till now, I still keep recalling the bits and pieces of the wonderful event today, where the whole class was in chaos, taking photos here, passing cards and gifts there, doing this doing that; the graduation ceremony, lunch reception and more photo-taking.
Anyway, shall update more about today later, after my photos get transferred.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009 @ 7:35 PM
Hectic
Busy busy busy. Everyday of my life now is packed with programmes. Not for entertainment purpose, but for academic sake. Even from 7am to 8am, I am not spared. For every Tue and Thur morning = Bio extra lessons. Every Wed and Fri morning = English PACE program Everyday after school, 1.50 - 2.30pm = Chem SSP Thrice a week, 3.30 - 5.30pm = Physics specific chapters revision SSP
Cool Huh. Plus, the usual SSP are still on. Yeah, was damn enthusiastic and energized yesterday. But all energy worn off today, because I was damn tired. I thought I can handle all these well, but I was half right. I can't remain energetic every single day. Hence, I shall sleep at latest 1.30am every night, and NEVER wake up at 4.30 am ever to study. Anyway, even if I set the alarm also can't wake up, so it is only disrupting my sleep, also making things worse than they already were.
19 days to 1st paper. Yeah man, hope it is over soon. But I am still unprepared. =.= Really looking forward to working, earn quick bucks! =D
Anyway, phone spoilt already I guess. Cannot hear what others are saying over the phone. zZzZZ Luckily warranty not expired yet, so can repair for free hopefully. I think my phone seriously sucked, giving me so many problems, I think this is the 4th time I had to go service phone again. Really using the warranty card to its fullest potential larh hor. =.= Have to wait for 2 more weeks after I send for servicing I guess. When will I have time to queue then? Maybe on Fri.
Therefore, my objective of switching on the com is to search for themes for my backup phone today, because the ones in the phone is like WOW yah. After dinner = more studying. Yeah, there are tonnes of homework for today~! Soo fun! =D
=.= deceiving myself.
Anyway, last Sat was Mooncake festival. Had family gathering with relatives and cousins, a great feeling=D It was great to be chatting and laughing with them all again. A sense of warmth and love <33 Yeah, love them! Played with sparklers after like a super long time? LOL. Eric Kor even bought a box of 100 and mum also brought like around 50, aunt wendy also brought around 30 I guess. Haha, in the end only left about 20. LOL.
LOVES!
Okay, FIGHTING~!
Friday, October 2, 2009 @ 7:01 PM
Unpredictable
Just read from Yahoo! News that there maybe another Typhoon approaching. Another natural disaster yet again. Although sometimes I complain about 'why am I not born in ___ ?' etc, sometimes I can't help but feel blessed that I am born in Singapore. Imagine if I were to be born somewhere else, I would have been dead. But, I ponder about things like 'why must we still study so hard, when life is so unpredictable and we may just be struck with any misfortune.' Perhaps it is just an excuse that I came up with, so that I can escape from the reality that I should work hard. If only we know of the future. Nonetheless, many said we should live life to the fullest. I don't doubt that, but that is really hard to accomplish? I mean, we spend 1/4 of our life maturing into adults, 1/4 to study, 1/4 to work and last 1/4 to wait for death? We would always miss opportunities when we were young, that are too late when we are old already. So, I always find life meaningless. Maybe because I just happen to be the one who is loveless and dumb, always losing out on everything.
Alright, enough about life philosophies or whatever, or else my brain will wander everywhere, affect my emotions and concentration in studies.
While I am typing this post, many out there are already suffering or even dying. God bless to them. I can never comprehend what they have went through. Never. So I should count my blessings.
@ 6:19 PM
Two Hearts
SS Take 3 today. Badly done larh huh. Blame it on myself for not being able to wake up at 4.30am to study Venice. LOL. End up, I study Globalisation for nothing. Cool huh. Wrote D&D for essay instead. But, at least now I know that actually I can memorise quite a lot of information, my brain capacity is not as bad as I thought. However, the bad thing is that SS is together with Chem, so I can only pray that Chem does not affect my memorising. LOL.
Anyway, today was a fast day after SS. Lessons went by smoothly. After school, went to Kovan with Huiting. Had Bibimbab for lunch! Not bad, quite nice to eat and lunch special is at $4.80! Heh heh. Then it was chiong-ing Am business at Kovan Mac. Didn't know that it allows studying on weekdays! LOL. However, there is no space inside, because there are also many smart students studying inside =.= But, that did not deter us from studying! LOL. Was rather alright, surprisingly I was attentive and not tired, although I lack of sleep for this whole week. Only 4 hours a day max? Yeah, even Kor asked if I got beaten today because of my huge eyebags =( Oh, FINALLY managed to find the Physics 5-year series at TPY Popular! We were damn happy can! We searched many outlets, such as Bishan, SengKang, Kovan and Hougang Mall. Yup, hope it helps.
Nevermind, all those pampering business shall happen AFTER 'O's. Yeah yeah. TONS of homework this weekend.
1. HCL essay & compre. 2. EL compre. 3. Physics papers (Anderson & Catholic High) 4. Chem paper (Catholic High) 5. AM (FSS, Anderson P1&2) 6. Bio (Anderson, 'O' level 08) 7. More than I can remember?
Next 2 weeks shall be super busy. 3 days per week for Physics tutorial for weak students. Especially F9 students like me, can I not go? Actually I am more than happy that this was arranged, but so many classes won't be as effective as I thought I guess. Hmm, then there will also be intensive training with my dear jie/shifu for AM =) Also, I should be seeking help from Mr Chong or Mr Goh for Bio. Not forgetting Chem, there should also be timed-practice and also coaching from Ms Ong. Then, History also shall have a session. Yeah, so I better get good results, all else all these would be for nothing.
Tomorrow should be meeting up with relatives and cousins for gathering cum mooncake festival celebration? Yah, so it means lesser time to do hw = spending less time in front of com = more time to do hw = less time to sleep. Okay, enough crap. After dinner is mugging again. I think it shall be Am and EL compre for tonight? Shall wake up early tomorrow morning to complete as many papers before I go for the gathering. FIGHTING~!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 @ 6:51 PM
Don't Wanna Try
All motivation gone? Really feeling lost. These 2 days had been going back to school, because of lousy results. =( But, at least my L1R5 improved pretty much than prelim 1. Now very worried for ALL subjects, no confidence at all I guess. However, it seems that I am not doing anything about it. Still watching tv, using com and sleeping alot as usual. Everyone is working hard and chionging, yet I am still slacking. How?! Next Mon first paper already. As much as I want the 'O's to be over as soon as possible, yet I am afraid that it is approaching so soon. The amount to memorise for Humanities is really my greatest fear. Will I fail to finish memorising like prelim 3 for SS? That is really a great challenge. Fancy me watching 'Dead Or Alive' just now and blogging now when I am totally not supposed to. I guess maybe this shall be the last post here, shall continue after 'O's? Because there is really no way I can stop using the internet or whatever when I switch on the com, so might as well not switch it on in the first place.
I really hope everything will be fine.
Fighting~!
Sunday, October 18, 2009 @ 11:51 PM
All I ever wanted
Sometimes I really wonder exactly what parents expect and want from their children. Sometimes I felt that I understand what they are thinking and feel, but there are moments when I felt as if I don't understand them at all,as if we are complete strangers.
Although I know that they care about me, not wanting me to spend too much time travelling to and fro SCC and my home. However, it seems that they don't know the reason behind my trip to SCC. It is not because I don't like to stay at home, like to hang outside with friends or whatever, I simply wanted to find a conducive environment to study in, so as to produce the results that I know they would be happy about. In the past, whenever I sit in front of the com and the television, they will scold. Right now, even when I am trying to put effort into studying, they want in butt in again. They really don't understand what I am trying to bring across to them. I am doing all this because of them and also because of my own future. Yet this is the reward I get from them, nothing but accusation. I seriously hate it when I am being misunderstood. Just because of such a small matter would start an argument again. I thought that as I grew up, I will be more mature and handle things better. However, it seems that I screwed up things badly instead. I rather not grow up.
Next, an issue that I have kept to myself, and have been trying to resolve it, which is their trip to Korea. It was all planned and said that I would be able to join them on the trip to Korea. But guess what, there was a change in plan. There is no way I am going to Korea and instead, I shall be stuck in Singapore by myself as they enjoy their wonderful trip. When they asked me about whether to let them go to Vietnam or Korea by themselves, through the phone, I asked them to go to Korea, because I think it would be much better there. Although I am damn unwilling to let them go by themselves, at least it is better than wasting another sum of money to go to Vietnam then wait till after my 'O's then all of us go tgt, when in the first place they are interested to go Korea. Mum still keep asking if it was okay for me. Obviously it is not okay right? But what can I do other than to agree? You guys are the ones who will pay for the air tickets, not me. Yet you keep repeating your question again and again. I was already upset and on the verge of crying already, because I really want to go to Korea badly. I seriously feel like throwing my phone down and not give a damn can. I really hate it when you guys promised and did not fulfil what you have said okay. If that is the case, don't even make the promise in the first place and break it in the end. You will just end up losing my trust. Somemore, the date is when my 'O's just started, the period that I felt that I would need them to be there to encourage me the most. Yet, where were you? And what is the reason for going before my 'O's ended? Because they wanted to see the spring autumn or whatever leaves that will not be available after my 'O's, as by then it will be winter already. But I thought it will be a good chance to experience winter too, as it would be rare, somemore the scenery in Korea would be very nice. In the end, why don't want? Because winter very troublesome, need to bring many things and wear many layers of clothes. THEN, why travel overseas in the first place?!
"Next time you want then you go after you start working lor, or you go with your husband larh. We also old already, you think we have so much time to wait to go meh?"
Woah seriously, WTH. The first and the last time I went overseas with you guys was when I was 3 years old. How would I remember can? Then now, I want to make use of this chance to go with you and to create more memories, all these things are what I get in return. I shouldn't have thought of that in the first place, since they are selfish themselves. So when I finally get rid of my unhappiness over this issue, and hope that you will enjoy your trip, despite your constant conversations about this trip that made me feel so uncomfortable and bear with them, you cause so much more anger in me that I can't take it anymore and want to vent my anger here. The truth is, I never wanted to blog about all these. But I really can't take it anymore.
All I ever wanted is for you to care about me and be proud of my achievements, is it really that hard to be gained? Sometimes I wished that I never existed. Maybe 2nd bro should be the last child that you have, so I may not need to suffer all these misery.
These words that came out of my very mouth hurt me more than you would even have felt, because I disliked myself being this way more than you do.
Sorry to people who have came across this long chain of nagging. If you think it was a time reading, I apologise. But, it is a good way for me to vent my anger, or else I would have suffocated to death.
@ 8:55 PM
最長的電影
As I looked out of the window, the sky was filled with white clouds. And the first person who came into my mind was... Erlin! Haha. The girl who share the same interest as me, which is to watch the clouds. This led me thinking about the first long conversation we had, which was during a Pe lesson. Getting tired, we just sat down and discussed about the clouds, saying this lump looks like a man etc. Haha. Come to think of it, it was silly but fun. From then on, our topics were often about the clouds. =) Erlin, 今天有抬头望望天空吗?
Woke up late by 30 min, so quickly washed up and prepared to go SCC. The most embarassing thing of the day happened right in the morning... I was walking up the steps of the overhead bridge when I saw that many people are heading towards the SCC. Afraid that there will be no seats left, I quickened my pace. Just after 1 step, I fell. O.O I still said "Ouch, Ouch" until very loud. Then quickly I stood up and looked behind to see if there is anyone. There is 1 lady behind! She like hiding her smile larh. SO embarrassing! Argh. I thought I was not spotted. Haha. Somehow today good mood, laughed at my silliness and rushed my way to SCC, without cursing or swearing. Heh.
However, SCC was not as packed as I thought =.= Luckily I had slight abrasion only, or else I swear I would be damn angry at myself lor. Anyway, was not productive today. Because my seat was getting stuffy in the afternoon, then my shoulder ache started acting up again. =( So, went home early to rest. Okay, shall send 2 essays to ms kaur and continue study.
"And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love But it came too soon And there was me and you And then we got real blue Stay at home talking on the telephone And we would get so excited and we'd get so scared Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
[1] As we go on We remember All the times we Had together And as our lives change From whatever We will still be Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs And we make the big money When we look back now Will our jokes still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break every single rule Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man? Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan? I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la: Yeah, yeah, yeah La, la, la, la: We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? I guess I thought that this would never end And suddenly it's like we're women and men Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly "
In the past, whenever I heard this song and browsed through the lyrics, I just thought that it was meaningful and a lame song.. Who will listen to it?
However, I actually searched for this song right after I switched on my com. Now the lyrics make soo much sense to me, it is definitely a lame song, but a song that expresses what I am feeling for the whole of today. Till now, I still keep recalling the bits and pieces of the wonderful event today, where the whole class was in chaos, taking photos here, passing cards and gifts there, doing this doing that; the graduation ceremony, lunch reception and more photo-taking.
Anyway, shall update more about today later, after my photos get transferred.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009 @ 7:35 PM
Hectic
Busy busy busy. Everyday of my life now is packed with programmes. Not for entertainment purpose, but for academic sake. Even from 7am to 8am, I am not spared. For every Tue and Thur morning = Bio extra lessons. Every Wed and Fri morning = English PACE program Everyday after school, 1.50 - 2.30pm = Chem SSP Thrice a week, 3.30 - 5.30pm = Physics specific chapters revision SSP
Cool Huh. Plus, the usual SSP are still on. Yeah, was damn enthusiastic and energized yesterday. But all energy worn off today, because I was damn tired. I thought I can handle all these well, but I was half right. I can't remain energetic every single day. Hence, I shall sleep at latest 1.30am every night, and NEVER wake up at 4.30 am ever to study. Anyway, even if I set the alarm also can't wake up, so it is only disrupting my sleep, also making things worse than they already were.
19 days to 1st paper. Yeah man, hope it is over soon. But I am still unprepared. =.= Really looking forward to working, earn quick bucks! =D
Anyway, phone spoilt already I guess. Cannot hear what others are saying over the phone. zZzZZ Luckily warranty not expired yet, so can repair for free hopefully. I think my phone seriously sucked, giving me so many problems, I think this is the 4th time I had to go service phone again. Really using the warranty card to its fullest potential larh hor. =.= Have to wait for 2 more weeks after I send for servicing I guess. When will I have time to queue then? Maybe on Fri.
Therefore, my objective of switching on the com is to search for themes for my backup phone today, because the ones in the phone is like WOW yah. After dinner = more studying. Yeah, there are tonnes of homework for today~! Soo fun! =D
=.= deceiving myself.
Anyway, last Sat was Mooncake festival. Had family gathering with relatives and cousins, a great feeling=D It was great to be chatting and laughing with them all again. A sense of warmth and love <33 Yeah, love them! Played with sparklers after like a super long time? LOL. Eric Kor even bought a box of 100 and mum also brought like around 50, aunt wendy also brought around 30 I guess. Haha, in the end only left about 20. LOL.
LOVES!
Okay, FIGHTING~!
Friday, October 2, 2009 @ 7:01 PM
Unpredictable
Just read from Yahoo! News that there maybe another Typhoon approaching. Another natural disaster yet again. Although sometimes I complain about 'why am I not born in ___ ?' etc, sometimes I can't help but feel blessed that I am born in Singapore. Imagine if I were to be born somewhere else, I would have been dead. But, I ponder about things like 'why must we still study so hard, when life is so unpredictable and we may just be struck with any misfortune.' Perhaps it is just an excuse that I came up with, so that I can escape from the reality that I should work hard. If only we know of the future. Nonetheless, many said we should live life to the fullest. I don't doubt that, but that is really hard to accomplish? I mean, we spend 1/4 of our life maturing into adults, 1/4 to study, 1/4 to work and last 1/4 to wait for death? We would always miss opportunities when we were young, that are too late when we are old already. So, I always find life meaningless. Maybe because I just happen to be the one who is loveless and dumb, always losing out on everything.
Alright, enough about life philosophies or whatever, or else my brain will wander everywhere, affect my emotions and concentration in studies.
While I am typing this post, many out there are already suffering or even dying. God bless to them. I can never comprehend what they have went through. Never. So I should count my blessings.
@ 6:19 PM
Two Hearts
SS Take 3 today. Badly done larh huh. Blame it on myself for not being able to wake up at 4.30am to study Venice. LOL. End up, I study Globalisation for nothing. Cool huh. Wrote D&D for essay instead. But, at least now I know that actually I can memorise quite a lot of information, my brain capacity is not as bad as I thought. However, the bad thing is that SS is together with Chem, so I can only pray that Chem does not affect my memorising. LOL.
Anyway, today was a fast day after SS. Lessons went by smoothly. After school, went to Kovan with Huiting. Had Bibimbab for lunch! Not bad, quite nice to eat and lunch special is at $4.80! Heh heh. Then it was chiong-ing Am business at Kovan Mac. Didn't know that it allows studying on weekdays! LOL. However, there is no space inside, because there are also many smart students studying inside =.= But, that did not deter us from studying! LOL. Was rather alright, surprisingly I was attentive and not tired, although I lack of sleep for this whole week. Only 4 hours a day max? Yeah, even Kor asked if I got beaten today because of my huge eyebags =( Oh, FINALLY managed to find the Physics 5-year series at TPY Popular! We were damn happy can! We searched many outlets, such as Bishan, SengKang, Kovan and Hougang Mall. Yup, hope it helps.
Nevermind, all those pampering business shall happen AFTER 'O's. Yeah yeah. TONS of homework this weekend.
1. HCL essay & compre. 2. EL compre. 3. Physics papers (Anderson & Catholic High) 4. Chem paper (Catholic High) 5. AM (FSS, Anderson P1&2) 6. Bio (Anderson, 'O' level 08) 7. More than I can remember?
Next 2 weeks shall be super busy. 3 days per week for Physics tutorial for weak students. Especially F9 students like me, can I not go? Actually I am more than happy that this was arranged, but so many classes won't be as effective as I thought I guess. Hmm, then there will also be intensive training with my dear jie/shifu for AM =) Also, I should be seeking help from Mr Chong or Mr Goh for Bio. Not forgetting Chem, there should also be timed-practice and also coaching from Ms Ong. Then, History also shall have a session. Yeah, so I better get good results, all else all these would be for nothing.
Tomorrow should be meeting up with relatives and cousins for gathering cum mooncake festival celebration? Yah, so it means lesser time to do hw = spending less time in front of com = more time to do hw = less time to sleep. Okay, enough crap. After dinner is mugging again. I think it shall be Am and EL compre for tonight? Shall wake up early tomorrow morning to complete as many papers before I go for the gathering. FIGHTING~!