I'll erase and erase love by emptying every drop from my heart.
i'd lie
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I'll erase and erase love by emptying every drop from my heart.
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Friday, July 31, 2009 @ 11:15 PM
Can't let go My 坚持 for a month has been gone to waste. It has been one full month since I have totally let go of him. However, I started to talk to him so naturally. Argh, I just broke the promise to myself. Damn the awards rehearsal, you suck! Yesterday felt really tired and wanted to sleep at 1am. However, many things just kept going through my brain. Ended up listening to songs to coax myself to sleep. Anyway, I began to like 933 fm alot, especially 'Yeah, Yeah, Yeah' by Zhou Chong Qing. He is really funny, but also seems to understand many things, such as affairs of the heart. Listening to him is like a friend giving to you, never leaving you in the lurch. Nowadays, he started to tell love stories near 1am. Seriously love it! Probably because the couple he mentioned seemed sweet, but most importantly, he lets you ponder on questions that you have had before, but never really think deeply for an answer, because you were afraid to. Accepting reality is a tough thing to do. Felt rather great that at least our misunderstandings were cleared. It's good to have a friend 'back'. The weekend has approached, and I am super worried for myself. Many times, I have told myself that I must spend the weekend fruitfully to study. In the end, it is just plenty of time wasted and when school reopens on monday, all I could do was to blame myself and keep saying 'IF only's. My determination is so weak now. Went to cineleisure today once again, to get Huiting's Gundam. Felt really happy that she got the one she wanted, because I was really worried that 'Rapid Culture' may not have the one that she wanted. Had a nice chat, and talked about the usual person. Haha. I will seriously scold him if history repeats itself. Come on, I need peace alright, I HATE it when people disturb me when I am in the midst of doing work. Not once, not twice AND NOT thrice. You have crossed the limit, damn it. I don't even want to plan what I wanted to say, so as to not hurt his dignity or whatsoever. But it seems that he don't get my message when I just 'OI'ed him loudly. Alright, the next time you try again, I will shoot bullets at you. No mercy. Thanks to those who supported me (actually is everyone whom I have consulted), I will do as adviced. I am so damn irritated. It's stupid to start it all over again. The feelings were back, but it lasted for only awhile. Yeah, I am happy not having to think about everything related to you. |