Sometimes I wonder, do we really have choices in life?

We do have I guess, perhaps it is just that I think of things in a complicated way. Today the career talk was rather informative. However, at the same time, it made me much more undecisive. First, it was AJC. It was one of my goals back then, when I was really determined to go into JC. Yeah, the feeling came back again, where I just had the urge and felt happy by just imagining myself there. But, the big problem to me is of course GP. I am worried that I would just score really badly in it and waste 2 years of my life then. However, many people are saying that it applies to everyone, so I should not worry about it. The other talks on JCs were more or less similar. Then came SP and NP. Too bad I am still unsure of my goals, or else everything would have been much simpler. I am always comparing to a huge extent, where many people do not think the same way. 3 things I consider: Will I be earning a high salary? Will it ensure that I have many choices for my career in future if I were to get bored or something? Is it beneficial to me in future?

The answer is actually up to myself. Some say that passion is much more important than money. I am not sure about myself. I just tend to think so far ahead that makes me hesistant in decision-making now. Why don't I have a dream now?! =( Psychology is rather alright, but I still have some reservations about it.

United World College(UWC) also came down for a talk. It was damn tempting. Seriously. It just provides the kind of environment and life that I think I would be enjoying so much more. Imagine studying in Italy, Norway or even USA... I would love that kind of life, however can I really be independent? The first thing that came across my mind was my family somehow. 'Can I really bear to leave my parents in Singapore and live overseas alone?' Then many more came along. 'Are the expenses too much than what I can actually afford?' 'Will I be able to adapt to the new surroundings, doing everything independently and not having any friends by my side, to support me whenever I need them?' 'Is this really the kind of life I want?' Hmm, I don't know the answers myself. As much as I know I have to sacrifice IF I were to be selected, I would say I don't mind. As in, this is a great opportunity to me, to be exposed to people from all walks of life and a whole new experience of life altogether. However, it is really tough to be selected, DUH. 3 rounds of interviews is bad enough. Just talked to Dad about considering to submit my application after they sent it to me. And it seems like he isn't against it. But, who knows? Maybe he won't bear to let me go afterall, when I am selected. Haha. I mean, who will bear to let their youngest child and only daughter to go study overseas when she is just 16 and immature? Lol.

Anyway, it is actually a dream that is realistic, but somehow too far to reach. Yup, so I think perhaps I may just send the application and then see how it goes. Then also back to thinking about local institutions, much more achievable and realistic. Haix. 'O' levels is coming at a fast pace and I am sooo unprepared. LOL. Stressed? Of course. Not coming within myself, but due to external factors.

Anyway, was actually damn pissed off because of the TP grouping. Its like no Yanling, no my e2 clique! The bus journey was quiet for me. Lol. No mood to be high. Luckily, Yanling being her clever self, managed to get into my group! Yeah man, or else I would have been bored to death! =D The trip was rather alright for the part on social-science and psychology though=) Afterwards was window shopping and dinner around Tampines and a super long but enjoyable bus ride home! =DD

Well, perhaps it is good if my parents were to set a goal for me, so at least I have a target and motivation. But, they do not try to force me to do achieve anything, as in go into any specific course or whatever. They allow me to choose it myself. Good or bad? I don't know.

All I know is that now is mugging business and I am spending far too much time in front of the computer and I am still aimless. Yeah, now is free time until 11.30pm, where it is bathe and Physics again.

Ohh yah, SS501 is now on Teens and Teenage for the October Issue! Like the first time they appear in a local magazine I guess? Haha. Rather happy=)

Bought Teenage, because there is DBSK's poster! Yippee! Haha. But like a bit disappointed because SS501 was featured but the details they provided were more or else seen on websites already. Moreover, despite being featured, the poster for the magazine is not theirs =( Nevermind, at least I still have DBSK's in exchange =D

Fighting~!

Sometimes I wonder, do we really have choices in life?

We do have I guess, perhaps it is just that I think of things in a complicated way. Today the career talk was rather informative. However, at the same time, it made me much more undecisive. First, it was AJC. It was one of my goals back then, when I was really determined to go into JC. Yeah, the feeling came back again, where I just had the urge and felt happy by just imagining myself there. But, the big problem to me is of course GP. I am worried that I would just score really badly in it and waste 2 years of my life then. However, many people are saying that it applies to everyone, so I should not worry about it. The other talks on JCs were more or less similar. Then came SP and NP. Too bad I am still unsure of my goals, or else everything would have been much simpler. I am always comparing to a huge extent, where many people do not think the same way. 3 things I consider: Will I be earning a high salary? Will it ensure that I have many choices for my career in future if I were to get bored or something? Is it beneficial to me in future?

The answer is actually up to myself. Some say that passion is much more important than money. I am not sure about myself. I just tend to think so far ahead that makes me hesistant in decision-making now. Why don't I have a dream now?! =( Psychology is rather alright, but I still have some reservations about it.

United World College(UWC) also came down for a talk. It was damn tempting. Seriously. It just provides the kind of environment and life that I think I would be enjoying so much more. Imagine studying in Italy, Norway or even USA... I would love that kind of life, however can I really be independent? The first thing that came across my mind was my family somehow. 'Can I really bear to leave my parents in Singapore and live overseas alone?' Then many more came along. 'Are the expenses too much than what I can actually afford?' 'Will I be able to adapt to the new surroundings, doing everything independently and not having any friends by my side, to support me whenever I need them?' 'Is this really the kind of life I want?' Hmm, I don't know the answers myself. As much as I know I have to sacrifice IF I were to be selected, I would say I don't mind. As in, this is a great opportunity to me, to be exposed to people from all walks of life and a whole new experience of life altogether. However, it is really tough to be selected, DUH. 3 rounds of interviews is bad enough. Just talked to Dad about considering to submit my application after they sent it to me. And it seems like he isn't against it. But, who knows? Maybe he won't bear to let me go afterall, when I am selected. Haha. I mean, who will bear to let their youngest child and only daughter to go study overseas when she is just 16 and immature? Lol.

Anyway, it is actually a dream that is realistic, but somehow too far to reach. Yup, so I think perhaps I may just send the application and then see how it goes. Then also back to thinking about local institutions, much more achievable and realistic. Haix. 'O' levels is coming at a fast pace and I am sooo unprepared. LOL. Stressed? Of course. Not coming within myself, but due to external factors.

Anyway, was actually damn pissed off because of the TP grouping. Its like no Yanling, no my e2 clique! The bus journey was quiet for me. Lol. No mood to be high. Luckily, Yanling being her clever self, managed to get into my group! Yeah man, or else I would have been bored to death! =D The trip was rather alright for the part on social-science and psychology though=) Afterwards was window shopping and dinner around Tampines and a super long but enjoyable bus ride home! =DD

Well, perhaps it is good if my parents were to set a goal for me, so at least I have a target and motivation. But, they do not try to force me to do achieve anything, as in go into any specific course or whatever. They allow me to choose it myself. Good or bad? I don't know.

All I know is that now is mugging business and I am spending far too much time in front of the computer and I am still aimless. Yeah, now is free time until 11.30pm, where it is bathe and Physics again.

Ohh yah, SS501 is now on Teens and Teenage for the October Issue! Like the first time they appear in a local magazine I guess? Haha. Rather happy=)

Bought Teenage, because there is DBSK's poster! Yippee! Haha. But like a bit disappointed because SS501 was featured but the details they provided were more or else seen on websites already. Moreover, despite being featured, the poster for the magazine is not theirs =( Nevermind, at least I still have DBSK's in exchange =D

Fighting~!